hmm.today pretty normal.not much.

only thing was got to try hongwei's gloves.

XD funny cause it was like FMA gloves.XD

*imagines edward elrics white gloves*XDD

then reach home use comp talked to kaela.

we both had a shocker about her bf and all.

but it all turned out to be april fool's joke.

LOL.and we both actually made a fuss.XD

then read messages on DA of course.XD

had a bit of nosebleed going on.LOL.XP

then today jeannie sent me renfred's pics.XD

ahaha.so bo liao rights?XD

XD i think i love scanning pictures nowadays.
Reliving my memories at 'down under'.
This picture of course of kaela,me and kristen.
Oh yes i know.i'm the shortest T_T XD

If i remember correctly and hopefully i am..

This picture was taken outside 6O,our old class.

XD oh yes.brings back good old memories.

haiis.currenly in a saddened mood.

so many things i didn't even know.

sonia's husband passed away.haiis.

quite long already and i don't know.

just found out just after dinner.

haiis.on to the same darn topic again.

mum thinks of me going to university.

in australia after my o levels that is..

haiis.don't know whether i wanna go.

but it isn't really my choice to make.

i never knew they were serious about it.

i never thought they wanted to go back.

i never knew i really had a chance to.

all the past times i wanted to go back.

now looking back.do i still want to?

today the assembly at hall was ridiculous.

talking about how dangerous internet is.

worse was krishnan talked about it too.

and he used my name as example -.-

and say i might be talking to an 80 year old.

XD imagine telling this to sesshoumarujames XD

okay.nothing more to spill today.same old.

i'm so tired of my own tears.

i said i would stop those tears.

but it hasn't been able to stop.

i tried so many times already.

to no avail.its endless tears.

uncountable pains and sorrow.

unappreciative people i know of.

insults with added salts in wounds.

anyway.i've been missing sj

so long never talk lers.

always bad timing T_T

oh heck.darn darn darn.

read some posts from others today.

pretty saddening to see it written.

one is suffering somewhat my past.

another whom i had hurt and felt hurt.

the one suffering,i wondered in thought.

hopefully she didn't make my mistake.

and didn't do what i did in the past.

the other which i made another mistake.

doing the same thing as my past again.

somehow these memories are linked.

still.i'm somewhat happy right now.

pretty much back to normal i guess.

but best is still sesshoumarujames.XD cant help.

we always have fun "bickering" online.XD

Sundays are pretty much a lazy day.

Yesterday started reading dan brown.

The book "Angels and Demons" of course.

Captivated me.Enticed me.so darn nice.

Finished the book in two days.today.

ok.no more stuff to update really!

i seriously need to clean up my room.

and of course return those darn books.

its march holidays!time to rest!XD

though holidays are quite a bore.

cause i dont think i am gonna be out.

so shall stick at home to drawing.

XD havent been drawing for so long.

can't think of a darn thing to draw lehs.

okay.some darn quiz i took.naruto one.

today YEC got abseiling activity at 1 plus.

before we went already felt so scared lers.

when we wanted to go to the toilets we freaked.

cause we saw the men tying the ropes already.

so we got changing and meet at malay room there.

then the instructors explained the equipment.

and got one fellow to do a demostration on him.

that fellow has such small waist!girls envy him.XD

then after explaining he gave out the equipment.

weihang and chinying were the first fews to do.

then slowly me and huimin went up to 3rd storey.

we both joked and laughed so much wih the guys.

XD and the stupid guy helping me teased so much.

and even "abused" me by knocking on my helmet!

then worse was he took his camera and snapped!

dont know how many photos also.-.- tsk tsk.

i think i took the longest sia.climbing out so scary.

my legs were so wobbly.but after awhile was cool.

but still the wall so slippery then i just slide down.

nice.then after abseiling stayed in school till 5+.

then meet the parents session started at 6+.

but nothing much also lahs.didnt last for so long.

old wounds don't heal.they scar for life.

i think bouts of depression hitting me again.

on the touchy subject of australia again.

i wanted to cry there and then but held back.

i know i miss that darn place and i still am.

these few days have been really unhappy.

i think i am the bad person in everthing i do.

its always my anger that kinda gets in the way.

i think all i can do is do nothing but cry.

i think that it is always seem to be my fault.

maybe if i would just leave for australia,

things would be so much better wouldn't it?

its just times when i think i don't belong here.

so many things are dragging me down badly.

and i can't seem to smile so much anymore.

i always seem to sulk and be angry for no reason.

i'm and unreasonable selfish mean arrogant bitch.

but most of all.i miss being innocently happy again.

i think after seeing something today,

i would like to make a wish for someone.

but not just any normal old wish.

because of my helplessness i wish for this.

it is to clear away my best friend's tears.

and most importantly of all, her problems.

seeing her break down was just hard.

i wish i could help too but afraid i worsen them.

but these problems have been bugging her.

and i just couldn't seem to be able to do anything.

helpless for yet another time.and i couln't stop it.

i couldn't even do anything to stop those tears.

but i don't care for the idiot who made her cry.

all i want is my best friend's problems to die.

this coming from the helpless clumsy stupid me.

pretty much kinda true.=x

oops.was supposed to report something.XD

well overall the bread pudding was okay.

only thing was too sweet lahs.sugar high o.O

today really pissed off at a person somehow.

this person made chin ying cry.but i am not sure.

dont know whether to doubt or what shit.

its just getting on my nerves at times lahs.

people work hard to achieve something.

but another comes along to accuse you.

wanna find out but afraid i had the wrong person.

but do you think she might admit?doubt so.

oh heck.i dont give a damn anymore to these!

aiya.but everytime i say i dont i actually do.XD

silly old me.the violent volcano smoking away..

listens to ashlee simpson -boyfriend.nice ^^

heex.currently making bread pudding.

wondering if it is edible or not lehs.

cause i changed coconut milk to fresh one.

because coconut milk too fattening! XD

woots.but i didnt use butter also lehs.

used margarine instead.havent started yets.

waiting for the bread to soak first then bake it.

muahaha.if it works out right then woohoo~

okay.nothing more to say.i'll report if successful XD