Just last week I discovered my deep fear of dentists.
All because of a chipped molar due to hard crunchy fries!
Else I thought I'd be able to escape having to go to the dentist.
So x-ray and filling got me all shaking and crying uncontrollably.
(thankfully silent kind and not a full out bawl)
Got so bad I think I might've freaked the dentist, staff and patients.
Feeling so sorry for all of them since they were so supportive.
But then again for the first time since my emotions were out of control.
Unfortunately it brings to mind my behavior as a child.

Thankful for my mister.
Calm to my storm.
Warm embraces.
Soothing words.
I love you so.

One year.
To more ahead. I'd always thought it a beautiful thing to drown in words.
To immerse myself in the world created by authors in novels.
How I'm afraid I've come to hate it now.
As I start to read all these texts and articles for assignments.
And I drown in these words. Didn't want to celebrate Valentine's cause so overrated.
And cause we are just cool like that yo.
Still, he treated me to a premiere showing of Deadpool.
Silly us thinking that the prices were so ex cause premiere.
Adding on to the fact that it was midnight movie on Friday.
Little did we know the premiere for Shaw was like GV gold class!
So pampered and comfy with adjustable leather seats and all.

This year's lunar new year was such a short but sweet one.
First lunar new year together. And first introduction to my relatives.
Apparently he ain't nervous but I sure was somehow...
Sadly, no more holidays until late March.
Hanging on to a thin thread of sanity for my assignments.
And the only thing I look forward to nowadays are Friday nights.

"Your crazy matches my crazy." Thoughts of quitting my job surfacing in my mind.
And I don't know how people stay sane from this.
I'm just constantly tired and being a cranky bitch.
Just short of biting some unlucky person's head off.
Suspect I need to stock up more coffee than ever.


I never knew that a fight could hurt this much.
Then again maybe a good lesson learnt.
Compromise is indeed something important.

It is all the little things you do that makes me love you.
I don't think I can finish, were I to list them all.
Thank you for loving me.

This year; A new year.
A start of new learning soon.
And a resolution set between us.
It feels like it might be tough.
But I hope I'll make it through.

Look forward and never back at what was. Maybe it's the rain. They say drunk words are sober thoughts.

I think sometimes they ring true.
Especially when it all crashed on Friday night.

I realized to never underestimate the potency of wine.
Even more so when I created such a chaos from it.
I think I mark all the check box in drunken behavior.
Oh well, now I know...

i love you more
but that's okay
as long as you're beside me
my heart can take all that
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