Somebody take me in hand please?
I shouldn't be here.
Not when I have a load of work piled up.
Not when I haven't found a single good information.
Not when I am starting to feel useless here.
This really sucks.
It's tough.
But I guess there are others who have it worse.
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Today I was placed in a group of unknown people.
This of course is for project purposes no doubt.
I am happy I get to know more people.
But of course there is the feeling of shyness.
Maybe I should grow some balls and be brave.
(haha! just kidding about the balls i am no guy!)
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capture my heart away
pump it back to life
for it was long dead

Decided to have a random short post for today.

Since was too fascinated by a sighting yesterday.

Cause I saw a Seulong lookalike in Tampines!

Extra awe for today was the sighting of Honggi lookalike!

(and due to the fact we seldom see him so..yeah)

Alright, shan't continue with anything else.

P.S. I think I love men with flexible hips.

(nothing pervy of the sort really..I swear!)

I sincerely hope for a better week than this please.
Weekdays were endlessly squelched of brain juice.
Weekend spent back in Malacca with my relatives.
But things turned kind of awry and sad for today.
First was Grandma making me depressed.
Had a talk with her and she mentioned the unmentionable.
Second was incident with my relatives during breakfast.
This incident just makes me never want to be an adult.
I am not sure I can handle the responsibility coming with it.
Lastly is seeing Grandpa's weakened state.
Apparently he has severe asthma attacks lately.
It is pretty severe to be thinking of the unmentionable.
Nothing more I can say at this point. Mind has wiped out.

And so it is the first day back at school once more.
Might I say I am in a disorganized and disoriented state.
Because now my class has split to like 70:30.
70% in nutrition and like left only a sad 30% in science.
Not used to having only 40 people just in lecture theater.
Suddenly so quiet during lectures can't even cough. ha ha!
Adding on today kind of sucked big time.
No same breaks as Yan Fang and Yvonne.
Weird how lunch breaks now has reduced from 6 to 4.
Plus we received homework right on the first day. =_=
Oh well. :)

Everytime this song comes out I'd laugh now.
"I see your true colours~" are part of the lyrics.
Okay insider joke between me and my parents.
This song also brings back another memory too.
Oh well, it's a song which gives me lots of laughters.
Currently not happy with the mosquito bites I have.
(i counted a total of 6 huge bites on my legs!)
These came from the Bird Park I went yesterday.
But funny how I was the only one bitten as usual.
I guess maybe my blood tasted pretty good.
(should i give it a try one day? sorry sadist moment..)
Yesterday was Jurong Bird Park family excursion!
Since my Dad had gotten his hands on free tickets.
So many funny moments with my parents.
Mum with her weird imagination and comments.
All of us snapping away with our own cameras.
Dad forever taking pictures of flowers and plants.
Saw Charlie & Sox's "friends" in those cages. ha ha!
I love animals~ One day should visit the zoo again..
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Did some thinking yesterday.
Came to a decision after all that.
I still have my doubts about him.
Sometimes it haunts me.
The fear is overwhelming.
It is not something I can easily stop.
Because fear has a stronghold.
And I still feel dirty.

For the whole of this month I shall not touch sushi.
After eating at Cineleisure's Suki Sushi,
I'm definitely not touching sushi for this whole month.
(yes, it was THAT much)
But I'm so glad clique 6 finally have an outing together.
I think my head and ribs hurt after laughing so much.
How should I describe the cute silly antics of all 5 of them?
Well, lets just say add together we are a bunch of nutters.
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Ah~ Just watched finished You're Beautiful episode 3.
The hilarious moments are seriously never ending!
I love the writers for giving such slapstick comedy.
And I am sorry but can't help loving Geun Suk's character.
Cue Professor Snape hair and overdose of guyliner.
(why do I always like the un-gentlemanly one?)

This is the second time I have to question myself.
"Where do we go from here?"

I speak like a know-it-all.
But in truth I'm far from it.
Tell me what should I do?

If emotions were really that contagious,
Tell me why my moods are like that today.
Appallingly both my appetite and mood are together.
So if one goes down so does the other.
But no clue as to what set this off. PMS? maybe. ha ha.
And on an even worse note are money woes.
I shall strive to save up my money!
(after thursday's outing of course...)
For now let me wallow in self-pity alone thanks.

Couldn't resist the urge to post a second time today.
This time can't help but blog about Honggi's drama.
It's a mix of Coffee Prince and Hana Kimi.
Typical cross dressing and romance genre.
And mind the oddly named title "You're Beautiful".
(which to me has no link whatsoever to the show)
Hey! But with eye candies like Jang Geun Suk there!
Despite the fact he looks like Professor Snape.
Especially with the greasy black hair he sports.
(or he could be one of those Brown Eyed Girls ha ha!)
Not to mention falling once more for Honggi here.
Cause he reminds me of Nakatsu in Hana Kimi.
Acting pretty much a little retard but cute here.
(i swear it wasn't cause of his half-naked bod in episode 2!)
Okay, maybe I should be needing a cold shower. ha ha!

Yesterday felt like such a princess at home.
After outing with the "L-ders" of lunch and movie.
Went home expecting my dinner to be alone.
But apparently my parents waited up for me :)
Plus Mum lovingly bought medicine and herbal tea for me.
However after dinner was practically conked out.
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Today surprisingly woke up before my alarm went off.
Yet after offing the alarm I went back to sleep.
Still I woke up earlier than my bed rugged parents. ha ha!
(i think i only wake up earlier than normal when i'm sick)
Was introduced to nice bowl of noodles at Simpang Bedok.
After a day of being princess I'm back to slave mode.
Which is helping carrying the heavy basket of groceries.
It is always funny to shop with my mother really.
Because we 2 always end up forgetting to buy something.
And Dad always wander around getting "lost" in there.
Mum and I love faking a PA announcement for him.

I currently have this odd obsession with bells at the moment.
Due to the Japanese doll key chain Lorelle gave me.
I have no idea why I like the tinkling of the bell.
Maybe cause it sounds like a bell attached on a cat collar.
And I feel like a pet cat?
Or maybe I miss Max the cat in Aussie?
Okay sick Levina equals to a nonsensical one too.

Waking up this morning was such a burden.
Especially waking up to such sleep-able weather.
Adding on to the fact that I had sore throat and a cold.
To be more specific I feel like shit for the whole of today.
Okay my brain is blank for today.

It was a meet up with the 2 other "L"-ders today.
Had a workout session at Pasir Ris East CC of badminton.
We were like playing so leisurely at our own pace.
Save for the others which looked like battlefields.
It was great save for the rain of sweat on me.
I stupidly forgot to bring a towel nor a change of shirt.
So end up borrowing Lynnette's since she never sweats.
The funny moment today was Lorelle and I.
We both were admiring another badminton player.
How toned his legs were; How toned his arms were.
Then Lorelle saw him wiping his sweat with his shirt.
(i think she lost it and drooled here. haha!)
Anyway went home right after badminton.
Discovered swollen bruise on my right hand.
And a blue-black on my left as well.
When have I not gotten a blue-black while playing sports?!
Oh yeah and I'm seriously considering surgery.
That's when I have the huge amount of cash man.
Just to remove those extra zealous sweat glands I have.
Darn you glands! (uh..this sounds funny hur hur)

On the journey back home I saw a beautiful sight.
A field with families flying their colourful kites.
The sky was practically "cramped" with so many of them.
It filled me with much fascination and wonder.
And I felt like a kid again looking out from the car window.
All the kites looked like floating jellyfishes.
As though the sky was their ocean.
I regret not taking a picture of the sight.
But since I was in a moving car it was pointless.
And I realised I have never done kite flying before.
Sad they don't have kite rentals do they? ha ha!
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One thing about me is I hate having headaches.
It makes me feel so vulnerable and weak.
I was practically living the life like the undead.
Holing out in my room with no light or sound.

Anyway thank goodness for some novels to read.
Yet again Jodi Picoult's novels perk me up.
This time inside a book held a cute surprise.
Within one page there was this little note with a quote.

"It can't rain forever,
and your rainbow presence makes it all better
within the stormy dark clouds."

And behind it said "P.S. Yes this is for you"
It did perked my day up for sure :)
Thanks to unknown person for a smile on my face.
And no doubt my funny nutters called parents! hee.