The more they tell me, the more I find out.
All the more I don't understand this new stranger.
I had expected things to come to this extent.
Just didn't expect hurt to come in an underhand method.
(it really is a new divide now like you used to predict)
Every since I stepped into this new environment,
My patience for anything has run really thin.
When they say it takes time to adapt to new things,
I never knew that included the changes of people too.
And even more so it included the changing of myself.
I am not so sure what to expect anymore.
It is like things soon are just coming round the corner.
Should we all be upfront about things and talk straight out?
It is so sickening and really pissing me off real bad.
I am always running away but I don't want to anymore.
Besides if you are asking me to face 3 years like this everyday,
You might as well just ask me to go and die.
But today's event just had totally nothing to do with me.
Should I even cut it in like a bossy bitch?
Anyway currently feeling ultra guilty to my parents now.
Since I just slammed and locked myself in my anger.

hold me tight
hold me close
in your embrace
to cry in your arms
whisper softly
tell me it's okay
for now and forever
you would still be here
I am such a dumbnut even at this late hour.
Bloody hell!I am supposed to wake up at 8am tomorrow.
But who is to blame for sleeping 8pm today huh?
(not me not me not me not me not me not me NOT ME!)
Add to the fact I conveniently forgot about APFS tut quiz.
Oh shizzle fizzle.
Today (or rather yesterday) feels like a weekend.
Cause we only came for the darnded FI viva voce.
(in simpler terms it is just a bloody oral exam..)
Went well I guess.
Anyway, my loving and overtly concerned parents..
They have just threatened me to report my every move.
During the time where they will be frolicking in Japan.
Or else my allowances shall be cut off...
But still love them nevertheless.

















P.S Daddy please just don't sing "Nobody" by Wondergirls.
P.S.S And don't try it in falsetto voice either! I am finally able to post something up today.
After days of having problem updating anything.
Today is another one of my unlucky days.
Was already running late (as usual) for school.
Junction from Pasir ris to Tampines had an accident.
Or so I am sure that it was.
Because I was in such a daze.
And I was worried I'd get another warning letter.
But the bus blocked the whole turning junction.
So alighted and walked to the nearest bus stop.
And took the ever slow moving bus 8.
But thankfully reach the classroom just in time.
Another classmate of mine was caught in one too.
But the scene of the accident was more gruesome.
Today is really an unlucky day.
Lorelle thinks it's the aftermath of the eclipse.
Oh well, ain't too sure about it myself.
Anyway, currently not in a great mood or condition.
Bogged down again as usual with a lot of stuff to do.
It is so hard to find the time to take a breather nowadays.
plus not feeling that great to find out age is yet another obstacle. to me. I'm still pretty stoned right now with piles of work.
There is still so much homework left undone. =(
Plus my brain feels quite dead and dried up.
Anyway today is KAELA'S 20th BIRTHDAY =)
(though i doubt she would see this post on my blog)
Oh well I sincerely have nothing to talk about. sorry.


i know now
why you call me a fool
cause i
miss you
but we are already through
so why is it that
my eyes only sees you
yet again
i am only but a fool
cause i
love you
I think ever since Year 2 started I'm burnt out.
Nowadays touch down on the bed means instant sleep.
And my brain is either too blanked out or saturated.
(but sadly i think it is saturated with unnecessary stuff)
Don't really know where am I heading with me life.
Oh well, just be happy when it's time to leave this madhouse.
Meantime, let me just spazz away with this 3 alright? =)
By golly it has been a week and more!
Am still bugged down by project works and more.
But today I feel the need to post something up.
Some things were getting pretty worked up recently.
It just feels like an endless stream of negativity.
But once everything is done with I hope all is back to normal.

I have come to realise how big changes can be.
Changes in someone you thought you knew.
Turned out they were a stranger to you.
But then again maybe the one who changed was me.

Anyway, this joke going on about my impatience today.
Nearly vowed the next person who shows me a black face.
I will tell them "fuck you" with a smiling face. ha ha!
Seriously I think that is how bad recent moods are.
I swear the project works are taking a big toll on us.
I have yet to learn the lesson called "patience".
(seriously lynnette you're the best when it comes to patience)
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