Currently in the computer lab in school premises.
Feeling rather disorientated and moodless really.
First was due to the briefing of examination matters.
Fretting and worrying endlessly over my upcoming exams.
Have the need to worry since I've been doing badly.
Wondering how to cope with the in flow of information.
Okay so much so that I have really nothing to type here.
Sigh.
darkness fills up the empty space of my mind In the past I must have "bullied" a lot of people.
For now recently its been me who has been "bullied".
"Bully" comes in the form of teases and "torture".
"Torture" comes in the form of 2 clingy human koalas.
So everyday school life 5 girls take turns to "bully" me.
Above mentioned includes Chin Ying as well!
Hehe surprised?She sure doesn't look the part right?
By this post I think everyone gets the gist of it no?
Nay,anyway their form of bullying is just a play thing. =)
Today is yet another idle day.Need to get some work done.
And still haven't gotten round to calling the home saloon. =/
I'm such a indecisive person,can't decide to cut or not to.
But one reason to cut is that it is getting a tad too thick.
Then again my speech presentation is the week after the next.
So should get around looking presentable for that day.
Yet can't be bothered to care about the looks part.
Most importantly is giving the speech in the first place.
Man,talking about it already gives me the jitters.
Alrighty! I guess I'll just leave it until next week the most.
i want to hold your hand till dawn breaks This morning awoke to grinding sounds in the kitchen.
Dearest Daddy was up blending something again.
I swear I wish I had Daddy's sense of creativity can?
Afternoon he sent me to Compass Point at 1plus pm.
Went there on a mission to buy my formal wear. =/
Had so much problems just to choose one top. XD
Managed to buy and forgot to ask if can refund.
Only after paying did I realise I can't refund nor exchange!
Feeling so much better from yesterday's awful mood.
Don't worry everyone it just takes me one day!XD
I get over my madness easily due to some crack pics!
Was laughing over some funny pics of dbsk as usual ;p.
Then cooed when I saw the mini version of Yunho! X3
See below picture and you know why I love them so.











When was the last time I felt like this again?
Felt like tearing my hair out of my scalp.
This morning's mood was actually superb.
Then the high went to an instant down low.
Only reaffirms why I never liked asking questions.
Ever since I started this course in polytechnic.
I've forgotten what was the reason I joined this course.
I just feel real stupid seated amongst everyone there.
So literally almost the whole day turned quite mute.
And everyone kept asking me what was with me.
I just started to ponder which side of myself is actually me.
All the time swallowing these frustrations down silently.
Felt the urge to puke every little content of it out.
Want to scream,to shout out every little damn thing.
But only a silent cry is all I can manage for now.
Don't need nobody's honeyed words and comfort.
Just a place to scream yell shout curse and swear alone.
Suddenly Mr Lee's stress reliever tips comes to mind.
Ahh well guess this is one of those FUCK OFF days.
when was the last time these tears fell down?
ahh reminiscence now are we?i truly hope not.
malty malty malty, you're making me faulty How lucky can my day be today please? =)
Despite whole day being angry at my mobile phone.
It turned out that this only lasted for a day~
For I had somehow repaired it when I reached home.
Maybe my mobile phone must have fallen sick yesterday.
Second happiness would have to be kept a secret within me.
I was practically brimming with joy during that moment.
But of course was well hidden with my poker face. ;p
Only unhappy thing today was definitely my mst1 test. =/
But nothing can get in the way of my upbeat mood now =D.
On the way home saw a really cute Eurasian infant.
It was gurgling and talking animated baby talk. :3
Played with the cute and beautiful baby before I bade goodbye.
Man,I so want babies of my own can?! teehee. =X
Though that would have to wait until I am older.
with every breath you take I'm so pissed with my screwed up mobile phone now.
It is so screwed up that I just gave up trying anything.
Apparently I can make and receive calls on my mobile.
Only just can't receive or send out any messages at all.
So if you suddenly find that there's no response from me.
Don't fret,for its the nutty phone and not that I'm dead.
Well I might just be since all the songs in my phone are gone.
ARGH great,reminded of that particular thought.
Damn I swear I can't survive just one day without music.
Somebody sponsor me some mp3 or something *shot*. =/
Today's lunch was seriously a sinful dish to have.
I won't even bother to describe what it is to all of you.
Cause I think you guys might just have a heart attack.
But not much of a choice since it was my Daddy who cooked.
Recently school's always filled with lots of laughter. =)
But still filled with a little pressure of the upcoming exams.
Anyway to all those who keep sending me those darndest mails.
Especially those chain mails with the forward me things.
Can I hope you guys would just quit sending me those?
You know,we ain't some kind of preschooler anymore.
So I don't think friendship is measured by the mails you receive.
Neither do I think those faked characters would haunt me.
And just because they died over a love they never had.
If they truly exist,well they can kill me for all I care.
For I had literally died once.
Sorry guys but to me chain mails are practically spam mails.













i'd walk a thousand miles just to see you Recently Levina is training to be a future housewife.
Okay I'm just kidding about the above sentence.
Just that my friends think I'm like a wife currently,
Always trying to rush home to serve my husband or something.
Except there's no husband and there's no newly wedded joy.
Instead of course its my daddy and I left at home.
Today finally feel much better with the sore throat cured.
All that just won't go away is the annoying runny nose.
Dinner today was thankfully a normal hearty meal.
And not some creation daddy decided to try out again.
Okay don't feel in the mood to add much more to this post.
Everyone please stay in good health and add lots of laughter. =)
Mr Malty, aren't you so naughty?
the desire for your blood grows with every passing day Yesterday probably had an hour's worth of sleep.
Then this morning went to airport to send Mummy off.
Had breakfast with my parents after checking in her stuff.
Then immediately after breakfast we walked towards the gate.
I hugged then clung on, not allowing her to go off. XD
But of course I had to, so she left and went inside.
Daddy and I were ultra silent on the way back home.
We slept through Sunday morning despite having caffeine.
Then we had lunch had Compass Point's KFC this afternoon.
He mentioned about Mummy and we started to miss her already.
After lunch shopped for our minimal survival groceries together.
Then Daddy left for home while I shopped for stationary.
Finally using up my that Popular $10 voucher that was rotting.
At 3pm meet 5A and a little B classmates to buy cake and present.
Bought and headed to school or rather sneaked in like a thief.
And surprised Mr.Krishnan when he was tutoring our "accomplices".
Stayed behind after celebration and have a long chatting session.
Mr.Krishnan seemed to have thinned down way too much. =/
Left for home for Daddy's odd creation of a dinner today.
Which turned out to be Corned Beef Fried Rice, which is not all.
For inside there was shrimp chili,anchovies,cabbage,prawns and egg.
Thankfully the shrimp chili covered the strong taste of corned beef.
Everyone knows how much I am a fan of beef and all things beef.
But when it comes to corned beef,my body has a weak constitution.
True enough,minutes later my food was properly digested.
Off now,I'm starting to have a sore throat after I ate today's cake.
i'm not getting over you getting over me This morning had my mug of coffee with my parents.
Afternoon had lunch at Sungei Road with them as well.
Not to mention the company of my big aunt and uncle.
Then went window shopping with the ladies at OG.
While the men shopped for adaptor at sim lim square.
Home at 3+pm and slept through the pouring rain. =/
Dinner was a sad note of takeaway my parents bought.
Watched as Mummy got her luggage all packed and ready.
My parents keep asking me if I really want to send her off.
Though it is really very early at 4+am but I want to.
Hmm well 3 weeks without Mummy could be bearable.
Not as bad as the time my siblings went off overseas.
No worries don't think I'd get teary eye this time.I think.
But it sure would be a bit emptier these 3 weeks to come.

Had a odd dream in which I awoke really suddenly today.
I couldn't figure the person's face until the last part.
It turned out to be quite shocking when it was revealed.
I don't think I can ever face this person properly sometimes.
Everything even the air between us just says awkward.
I think I have the oddest dreams due to my oddball personality.

hardening my heart for it to be unbreakable













the solitary bird stands strong amidst the storm I swear I'd never want to go toilet alone anymore.
Today's maths peer tutoring seem reasonably short.
Halfway through I headed to the toilets by myself.
Starting I wasn't fearing anything at all.
But then there was odd indescribable sounds I heard.
Plus no one else was in the toilets at all.
So I was really frightened and left immediately.
Only to be freaked out by Chin Ying accidentally.
Cause she opened the door suddenly and unexpectedly.
I'm such a scaredy cat for I nearly teared up. ^^;
Oh geez to me and my over imagination.maybe.
your love alone is not enough
The cake pictures I'd promised. =) Don't drool though. This morning once again I had nearly overslept.
Thankfully despite getting out of the house late,
Managed to make it in time for 9am maths lecture.
But missed out on my tempting but nauseating breakfast.
Which turned out to be last night's chocolate cake.
Met my classmate on bus 15 on the way to school.
And not to mention its on a packed bus to boot.
Although it was packed,the driver still allow more.
And it was funny cause he suggested the back exit door.
So cool can!?Its more fun entering from the exit! :D
Today learnt about cardiovascular system in HAP lecture.
Apparently there are heart strings in our heart.
And they are actually named chordae tendineae.
So pulling at one's heart strings,
Would one like to use pulling at one's chordae tendineae?
we're only but strangers Today despite lessons started later than usual at 10.
To think I could end up oversleeping and missed tutorial.
Only went to school for the 2 practical sessions instead.
First practical was pretty funny testing our nervous system.
Especially the basic knee reflex jerk testing and taste test.
Everything seemed to turned out different for my group.
Then last practical on food preparation was really chaotic.
Since one member in my group turned out to be absent.
So 2 of us left to handle with all the heavy work today.
This week was everything to do with eggs and more eggs.
So by the time I finished,I was sick of seeing any egg.
But was quite proud of the breaded fish we made today.
Anyway left for my empty home and ate my sad dinner.
But my parents came back with a big amount of cakes!
It looked really tempting and tasted really good.
But after 5 bites or more I couldn't stomach it down.
For the cake was overtly rich and very very filling.
Either that or recently my appetite can't be whetted easily.
Plus my mood's a little on the low side recently.
Sigh.Mummy's leaving for HK on sunday morning. =(
Okay upload the mouth watering cakes the next time.
so now i know why the fool can't stop once he starts First of July and full of oddball happenings today!
This morning's maths lecture had a small bit of fun.
Due to a sudden commotion of cockroach being spotted.
And as usual girls were easily freaked out by these pests.
As freaked as I was, I ended up laughing at the scene.
For the lecturer turned a hero to save the 'damsels in distress'.
First killing attempt but the cockroach ran away unscathed.
Second time he finally caught the cockroach unaware!
Then stomped down hard on the unfortunate cockroach.
Plus to prevent it rising from the dead again,
The lecturer ran it over with the nearby OHP machine.
Everyone just went: "Ooh.. during that particular moment.
Today also had my humiliating impromptu speech test. =(
My turn came up and I was practically shaking like a leaf.
I started reading out well but later on my mind blanked out.
Panic took over and I started turning tomato right there and then.
Ended the unsatisfying speech really abruptly and left for my seat.
Oh well, can I say better luck next time?
If there even is a next time.
little did I know how much hold you had on me
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