Shan't bother to blog long post for now.
Considering i might strain my brain juices.LOL
And i somehow already strained my hand muscle.
Anyways looked into genting's theme park site.
And all i can afford is excitement and glee. =)
I'm so gonna conquer all the rides that day baby!
Think nerdy might not join me but oh well.
I want to make my trip worth.Any takers people? Adding on to depressive mood is bouts of stress and pains.
Careless mistakes made in studies and in the midst of life.
I realised though i said we kept dragging on to the past,
I found out that in fact it was really i who still held on.
Maybe i have this deep grudge that can't be taken away yet.
What can i do so everyone will be happy and satisfied?
All i'm just doing now is running away and hiding from reality.
I can't face up to my own life.
I'm a dreamer of fantasies and utopia.
But yet the life i lead can't satisfy me.
My life starts to crumble into pieces.
What exactly is it that i want from others?
What exactly is it that i actually want from myself?
Running away brings adrenaline rush to my blood.
Avoiding all the chaotic mess i can't handle.
But i'm starting to tire out,my heart can't take it
And now it finally catches up to me.
They say one can die of a heartbreak.
I'm awaiting for that death day which looms over me Due time for goodbyes and departures away from school.
I think i settled the problem now or so i think i did.
Just wanted to get rid of current problems still dragging on.
I couldn't handle it so might as well just put it all on me.
So now least i could do for her is to get on with her studies.
In if failing which i feel it is my responsibility for the failure.
I know afterall the things i put them through its hard to be forgiven.
So might as well make them hate me to the core so they'll get on.
I shit sick tired.I don't know who am i nor what am i to be.
What exactly is myself and how was i like.i don't have the faintest idea.
So yes,i'm using everybody for the sake of my happiness and selfish gains.
If this finally lets them get over things and get on with bloody lives.
So be it.I don't give a damn shit about fucked up lives rumours fights.
I shan't bother myself with anyone's fucking lifes to start with.
I shall leave and start life over and live life the way i want it to be.
I shan't fucking care if everyone talks about me,turns on me.
I wished everyone in the world was a retard cause life would be easier.
Retards have happy simple lives with no stress on complicated shits.
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