just now went for my breakfast come lunch.

then went to visit big aunt in serangoon.

then moved on to visit grandma in hougang.

really sad to see not much of a response.

she looked really frail and thin to me.

unlike last time she could retort insults.lol.

haiis.she seemed pretty tired out today.

so it wasnt any surprise she fell asleep.

but we're guessing she'll be noisy at night.

haiis.but see her sleep so peacefully..

then left for home and my 2nd aunt came.

earlier on today my dad's brother came.

so had to play "entertainer" to cherney.(sp?)

today i'm just worn out.dont know why.

damn it all.tomorrow still got school.i think.

woots.1st thing 1st i got back something.

lols.then got loads of angbaos of course.

yesterday went visiting all my relatives.

then night went to uncle's condo for dinner.

had steamboat but initially didnt worked out.

cause his got some minor problem with it.

then we brought our own and they started.

but i didnt eat yet as i wasnt as hungry.

so talked to bryan and jolene's classmate?

lols.talked loads of crap stuff and jokes.

then went out downstairs with brenda.

found jolene joel and vivan playing out.

then bryan came down plus celest and mag.

then all teens playing hps and talking away.

but afterawhile went home and i wet myself -.-

not in that way of course.swimming pool.

actually wanted to jump in with my clothes.

lol.but then decided not cause got no extra.

thus only wet my jeans T_T and shoes.

cause that monkey joel chucked it in ><

then back there ate dinner then they gamble.

i not so stupid to gamble my money away.

so talked with jolene all through the nite.

aww.must thank hongwei and weipin alot.

thankies for the new year cards guys!!

so sorry didnt send u guys one back though.

cause u never gimme ur address lahs!!LOL.

today chinese new year celebrations in school.

managed to get 3rd in decorations.unbelievable.

lol.our hamper didnt make it though, sadly.

this year celebrations still like same same ders.

wushu and liondance not much of a difference.

dance quite okay.i was like opened mouth envy.

hahas.i only love those spiral swirly thingy lahhs.

then after school went metro buy wallet thingy.

its of emily the strange ders.then went rvm eat.

then went watsons buy liquid foundations.hahas.

shopping spree.wanted to buy another pink bag.

but spend it on the foundation instead lahs.lol.

heck.must save liao lahs.okays.no more updates.

chinese new year this year turns sourish.

things round here becomes dead quiet.

coming home with no one there anymore.

things from here on will never be the same.

the once ability to communicate fades away.

no more genuine laughter and smiles.

left with only tears and sullen faces.

it keeps on getting harder and harder.

i'm so fucked up.

maybe i am being paranoid and crazy.

but soon my fear becomes a phobia.

i really didnt want this to happen.

it reminded me badly of my past.

i took so long to forget only to remember.

2ndly i fell under the same trick again.

feeling rather foolish and fucked up.

awkwardness.felt used again and again.

pfft.cursed the tear ducts i have.

wondering if everything is okay from here on.

where do we go from here?

things will never be the same again.

but i didnt want that to happen like before.

i dont want to have to avoid like the plague.

then pretend in front that things are ok

only to secretly cry when it really isnt.

fufufu.jeannie made me do this again!
and i wonder why i do anyway.heck!

7 things that scare me:
1. loved ones dying
2. all insects
3. all lizards
4. dying horribly.LOL
5.failing my studies
6. haunted house -.- LOL
7. many many more.

7 random songs at the moment:
1. more than words.frankie j.!!
2. pump it.black eyed peas
3. don't cha.pussycat dolls.
4. hung up.madonna
5. listen to your heart.D.H.T
6. stars.switchfoot.
7. photograph.nickelback

7 things that I like most:
1. family
2. friends
3. furry animals
4. anything sweet
5. strawberries
6. beef lasagne!!
7. spagetti bolognese!

7 names i go by:
1. levina tay hui qin
2. levina
3. vina
4. lev
5. xiao vina
6. laovina.-.-"
7. hui qin

7 important things in my room:
1. my bed~!
2. handphone.
3. messy table.
4. hidden stuffed toys
5. wallet
6. bags all over the place.
7. rubbish.=x

7 random facts about me:
1. i need 10 or more hours of sleep.
2. i am ultra lame.
3. i hide my problems from others.
4. i scream a lot.
5. is seriously annoying
6. i'm a pest.LOL
7. is a procrastinator

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. spend time with family and friends
2. eat all the nice stuff.LOL
3. do something crazy and adventurous.
4. write my will.LOL
5. travel to places i've never been to before.
6. before i can die.visit old classmates in aust.
7. DIE in australia.BURY in singapore.lmao.

7 things I can do:
1. laugh
2. tease people.
3. cook?LOL
4. eat
5. sleep
6. play
7. and everything everyone else can.=p

7 things I can't do:
1. dont sleep.
2. stop laughing.
3. stop loving my loved ones.haax.
4. stop acting crazy.
5. stop being annoying.hahas.
6. don't procrastinate
7. like chinese subject.soo eww.

7 things I say the most:
1. SHIT!
2. lol.
3. haha.
4. ass! lol.
5. ehh.
6. erm..
7. *scream*

7 qualities I want in a potential boyfriend/ girlfriend:
1. love me for who i am.
2. good sense of humour.
3. able to hold a conversation with me.LOL
4. filial.i dont want them cursing their parents.
5. will always be there whenever i need him.
6. treat others with respect.haax.
7. hopefully dont do something that..still..scares me..

7 Celebrity Crushes:
1. korean singer and actor rain!
2. Orlando Bloom <3
3. Josh Hartnett
4. Jake Gyllenhaal

7 people I want to do this too:
just anyone who has time.lol.

ahh!he does read my blog!>_<

shit de.i totally forgot all about it lahs.

i forgot my blog links to many others.

lols.stupid me too.put in friendster.

ok.anyways,read weihang's blog post.

the recent one about krishnan being bias.

ok lahs.i agree too lahs.krishnan is bias.

he's mostly bias to us girls in class.lols.

pitiful boys.but come on.we so guai sia.lol

but krishnan looks down on us girls.

saying that we grow up only become housewives.

whoever said that we'd be housewives?!

oh heck.we girls will show it to him.right?

its getting better each and everyday.

i dont go thinking about it much anymore.

but sometimes it irks me a lot to see you.

it irks me more i'm comparing others with you.

it irks me that i am feeling fragile here.

seems like anything you do i could just break.

but i am gonna get over it.its gone forever.

i've been through the worst before.

anyway.these few days laughed till my sides ached.

go try asking the super lamer guy.lols.

we lame-d around so much until cannot lame.

hahas.okok.better not say.in any case he reads.

its been raining for so long these days.

it isnt any better when you're feeling down.

in fact it just makes it worse.gloomy days.

i dont know what i've become.i really dont.

i wish i could go back to what i was before.

you'd smile for a few happy moments.

but then it ends and its back to square one.

its just really hard to forget things.

especially when you want to forget them.

today laughed quite a lot for the whole day.

maybe it was because of side effects bahs.

side effects after being so sad for quite long.

then laughed heartily until stomach hurts.

splashed with puddles of water in punggol.

felt like a child once again.didnt had this chance.

woots.tomorrow is a holiday~hari raya haji~!

think might be going to far east with huimin.

cause i need to buy my new year baggie!

finding sling bags lahs.hopefully will have.

lols.today some weird stuff happened.

laugh and teased huimin a lot.hahas.

cant help it.unbearable laughter cant be kept.

then now found out how disgusting gao zi is.

LOL.if you ever know what i mean.

after all the guys referred it as something else.

so er xin i was staring at the paper for awhile

then i decided it wasn't anything to bother about.

sigh.just one day of happiness.only one.

maybe it was just silly agreeing bahs..

i wonder why it happened either.confused.

lied about feeling fine but i dont feel great.

but i understand.life's too busy right now.

but just cant help but feel that way.

i wanted to know why again the person asked.

then again.it doesnt matter anymore does it?

just want the person to be happy bahs.

thats all i ask for.

i am so exhausted now and maybe still shocked.

yesterday had a very big big shock of my life.

really didnt expect this to happen.of all things..

then couldnt think of what to say.just speechless.

then whole night just couldnt sleep at all.

but managed a miserable 25 minutes of sleep.

only 25 minutes until i woke up for school.

now i am having a big headache.real tired.

dont know what to answer back now.

and school so much homework lers.adding more.

argh.okay no more to spill.zZz.

1st day of school today and i nearly woke up late.

And i nearly lost my way in school.cant find class.

hahas.but end up still found with help of neighbour.

suddenly not used to being back in school lahs.

so far few teachers change but few didnt.weird.

damn.1st day already and krishnan give homework.

kill him!lol.urghh..tomorrow's PE.the last thing i want.

why am i always fated to have PE after the 1st day?!

oh well.heck.need to run now.cant use comp so much.

especially this year.

woots.but i didnt really celebrated yesterday night.

wanted to get drunk but cant find bottle opener.

lols.left me and my brother feeling disappointed.

wanted to go buy alcholic drinks but realised:

that i wasnt of age.wanted to ask bro to do so.

but then he was watching soccer match.

so spent my countdown doing practically nothing.

oh well.have a rockin' new year!