i always thought my class would never have catfights.
but who knows today we had a rather nasty one.
and they were practically having a argument during lunch.
1 thought up insults and the other challenges using her fists.
then when the other gave up and went for lunch they continued.
and were comparing each others assets -.- and love life.
ridiculous.when finally they ended.felt so damn peaceful.
urgh.heck care them liaos.silly fighting over a minor issue.

haiix.going nuts sooner or later.

the next week not gonna use comp lers.

cos exams nearing so muz not use liaos.

concentrating on exams and studying hard.

muz not fail so many subjects this time.

thus going insane at the same time also.

i'm mentally unstable right now so..

must beware and approach me with caution.

happy birthday to me~sounds so stupid -.-"
its 12 am lers and i dont feel any happy.
this year seems like nothing great at all.
kinda sad only celebrating with friends nia.
family members all seem rather busy bahs.
seems only mum remembers by giving $20..
the rest..no idea.no big deal anyway.wads 15 like?
haiis.i dont get it.this year i dont feel happy at all.
maybe cos of upcoming exams so cant be happy?
guess thats the only lame excuse i can thnink of.
blehs.stop here before i go on being crappy again.
happy 15th b'day to me.lame~

currently at my uncle's condominium now.
and had nearly gone deaf by all the screamings.
this afternoon had a loenly time swimming.
so long never swim already but it wasnt any fun.
and i was afraid of showing my horrible big thighs.
so dui lian.and thn at night had a great dinner.
pizza and kfc chicken and loads other stuff.full.
okays lahs.really damn nth to do.hopefully..
waiting..4 more days!

just finished watching a talk show on aids on ch. U.

it was rather interesting and it also made me think.

what would i really do if i were to know an aids person?

even i dont know what i would react if it really did happen.

maybe i might be shocked but would i really avoid him/her?

but i guess i havent really met any person with aids to know.

so i wouldnt be saying the truth if i said i wouldnt be shocked.

however,i wouldnt say i would avoid them.just takes time.

but still they do have feelings too and it must really be lonely.

lonely in the case that they do not dare tell a soul about it.

and people might avoid them if they let spill thus are lonely.

no matter what,they should be treated equally.

watched the news this morning on the bus.

a blogger was fined an amount of money.

because he posted racist remarks on his blog.

such disgrace -.- of a singaporean some more.

isnt s'pore all about racial harmony and more?

why are there people out there being such racists?

and no matter how "private" u want ur blog to be.

it's still seen on the internet by millions of others.

posting such things are of the blogger's own responsibilities.

pretty saddening to hear this happening in s'pore.

oh well.but the fine was a warning to other bloggers.

i absolutely hate studying and i dont know why.
i just bloody hate the whole damn thing.
i know its for my own good and my future and wadever shit.
but i just cant seem to like it or try and achieve good results.
maybe its just my fcuking attitude.thats why got parents pissed.
damn it all.damn my life.to hell with stupid life of mine.
i hate my life and the way i lead it.i hate everything.i hate this.
i hate having to go to aust for those 2 yrs.cos i missed it so damn much.
but do they know?!all i do i only get criticised.when's it gonna stop?!
right.everything all my damn fault.blame it all on me.life in the pits now.
happiness really doesnt last long.now they're all pissed at me again.
life sucks.levina sucks.

what a waste of my precious time going back to school.
went back to school and only to do 1 piece of miserable work.
dont know if krishnan wu liao or what.english remedial.
then i reach there quite a few there already.earlybirds sia.
such a waste of time ask me go back do work and being teased.
hmpf~ how come everyone thinks i am with him?!?!
get this : he's just a brother and a friend to me nia okies.
no need to get so "excited" in hearing silly and weird rumours.
and neither do i get why we are kind of so alike in some ways.
i dont know.mind boggling.maybe we just have same habits bahs.
oh well.never mind.getting quite used to hearing it.doesnt bother me.
away in my lala land with mitchell hand in hand.

have been looking through all my old diaries today.

ones i had written in my two years stay at australia.

looking back what i had written was just laughable.

and didnt know whether to puke my guts out or what.

i didnt know i wrote so much of josh.b and ash.p !

gawd..mushiness alert! was it really me who wrote it?

but come to think of it.i really do miss the place a lot.

i miss the people i met there the most.i miss them loads.

my biggest regret was not asking all of them for contacts.

and also not having a photo or two with anyone of them.

all i can do is look at the class photos we took before.

sigh.i think i want nothing else but to be able to go there again.

and find every single one of them and do what i wasnt able to do.

because currently the memories of them are soon fading away.

and i dont wish to forget them ever.i want instead to remember.

to remember the fun times i had there.

chick chick chicken pies!
heex.made some for myself and it was successful!
okies lahs.as long as they are edible its fine to me.
considering i havent puked yet so it must be alright.
so maybe in the future might try and make more pies!
thats if there is more pastries given by my aunt though.
siianx.holidays my ass~ its too boring to be holidays.

i'm officially going nuts sooner or later i believe so.

long time since i posted and yes, i am still alive to see the day!

but still tryng to learn to concentrate on my weak subjects still.

2nd sept wasnt really the best day.everything went all wrong.

muz also apologise to my HL partner for that particular spill.

so sorry!urggh.i could have died from embarassment if possible.

thn thought i could escape the claws of mr chong but too bad.

and in the worst of times, someone even dared wave at my dad!

and even sat down to talk a little.*should see the vein pop in my head.

then came the talk i dread and the unveiling of my disgusting results.

went home all gloomy with the "mrs" all furious and all.kinda depressing.

always try not to cry but thn only to fail.missed aust. so much i wanted.

no i desired to runaway from home.and smuggle myself there?impossible.

one day.maybe i will but i'm afraid the memories of it will slowly fade away.

i'm a failure.at loss of what to do and say now.
kind of mentally prepared for tomorrow ler bahs.
think this might be the last post i am going to write.
thinking i am going to be banned from the comp soon.
all because of my really terrible unbelievable results.
haiix.today happy for a moment but thn back with the blues.
today another time i finally got on well with my mum.
talking and laughing around.i hate to think about tomorrow.
i scared later my parents gets angry at me again.haiix.
dont want to have bad relationship with them.really dont want.
haiix.really going to try harder to improve my deproving studies.
urgh.i wish i had the love for studies but i cant help but hate them.
haiix.awaiting tomorrow's sorrow.goodbye..for now.