Broken up, deep inside.
But you won't get to see the tears I cry.

hmm.sch reopened nt long ago and didnt really had the chance to use the comp much till nw.today me being able to use is under condition ders.siannx.ever since sch reopened my life getting duller.looking cheerful and happy everyday is a difficult task to do.getting really sick and tired of hearing the same mentioned stuff over and over again.though i shall bear with it as i used to be like that b4.thn its kinda hard getting words into it.as all its attention is fixed on object.today ain't any better.was told i was being too noisy by particular sum1 so mayb nxt time i shld juz shut up.everyday seems so boring and dull.thats my life i guess. reawakening to prepare to go back to sch carrying the huge bag with the heavy and big amount of books.i wonder how am i supposed to climb up to the 3rd level where my class is situated.think i gonna collaspe halfway since whole holiday haven been doing any exercise.lols.neither can i wake up in the morning since during this whole time slpt till 3pm and slp at 5am in the morning.hey!mayb i can dun slp liaos.lols.or maybe i shall go to sch at 2 thn sch over liaos.hahas.tmr last day for me to celebrate b4 the holidays end liaos.thn tmr gonna go cut my hair wif hm.lols.thn also gonna collect the photos i took at beatty sec.stupid rite?nw thn pai wan.took so long to finish all the 10 pics in 1 flim.okies.nth more ta crap.yeoww!sebastian leong wai keong.cutie alert.lols. yupps.my dear brother is back and bald headed.he still kinda looks the same with the goofy grin he always has.and for ur infomation,zach,my brother is not a weakling!though he failed 1 small stupid thing during the nafa test or wadever shit it is called,he is not a weakling.shall i repeat what i say yet another time?anyways dunno why today during dinner was sulking the whole time.hahas.prob. was bored with having to listen in to their conversation and not eating a damn thing during dinner.wanted to walk around the mall but thn walking by myself so not fun ders.okies.nth else to crap here. dun mind the title.that is the stupid grp name for our project -.- .today woken up by a call frm hm abt the maths and science project.cos clark sent her thru email and she cant open it.so she asked to come to my house to do it.so had to get online thn ask clark to send it over to me thn bth of us tried to do the powerpoint but we only managed like 1 extra slide only as the topic we were doing is so darn difficult.thn 5 sum thing liddat thn we went to rvm and buy tidbits to eat thn hm had to go home lers.siianx.things are okies with yy liaos.thn decided i shld change for the better. tried so hard to stay happy.tried a million times but still failed.acting happy isnt as easy as i though.tried to stop those tears from falling but just cant.whole holiday stuffed up at home sulking and crying.nw hm wif yy watching the movie i cant watch.i am such a fool.nw i dont know who to trust anymore.am i really the 1 wif such a black heart.making me really look so evil and bad.haiix.really feeling damn left out.guess what they say were right afterall.i am the 3rd party.the 3rd wheel and the extra 1 out.guess thats all i am to them. pfft.eyes r sore after watching so much naruto & decided 2 use my fingers 4 awhile.lols.ytd juz came back frm klang.sat,my parents,aunt & i wen up 2 malacca & stopped there 4 1 day thn nxt day we bluffed my grandma said we're going home but as we're abt 2 leave,4th uncle arrived & my aunt had 2 tell him our lie so he wun spill it either & my aunt invited him & his family along.thn we drove up 2 klang while my uncle stayed there until nite he decided 2 cum.during whole trip we wen shopping & we spent loads there.lols.nth much oso.trip kinda boring.i wen there juz 2 get the naruto series my cousin dwnload 4 me.lols.& he even wen 2 buy 1 headband 4 me -.-.wonder wad am i gonna do wif it?put it on mehs?lols.okies.i shall stop here & go back 2 watching naruto! hehe.finally finished watching the 25 episodes of naruto my cousin passed to me.darn it.he shldnt have sia.nw i so addicted liaos.thn tmr going to malacca thn head dwn to klang oso thn he will pass to me episodes 26-130.think i gonna spend all my holiday watching this instead of doing hw.lols.this evening went to TM de ajiisan(sp?)to eat ramen.waa.eat until unable to walk much.lols.i loove the spicy miso ramen!thn afterwards we walked ard the mall.thn head back home lers cos dad needed a gd nites slp b4 waking up @ 3am to drive dwn to malacca cos he says its cooling in the morning -.-".okies.nth else to write but..sasuke!!god.i love sasuke. tis morning actually cannot wake up ders but thn wei ler see my bro 4 the last tym b4 he shave till bald so i woke up thn we wen pasir ris there & took ferry 2 pulau tekong 2 the BMTC(basic military training centre) & thn we toured the camp 2 see the lifes of an ns guy.nxt we wen 2 the oath taking ceremony(sum thing liddat lahs)& they gave a speech abt the living conditions & so on but talk until my ah kor nxt 2 me fell aslp.lols.thn after the whole ceremony we wen 2 have lunch 2gether wif bro.power98 de DJs were there 2 & there were goodie bags give away & oso whoever wanna dedicate song on the show @ nite can since the DJ gonna read it out.thus my silly dad & ah kor wrote in dedications 4 my bro-.-.lols.thn after lunch jiu said gdbye.thn we wen back 2 pasir ris thn drove 2 pop a surprise visit 2 see ah ma.thn wen home dead tired lers. heex.so happy sia.HL's banana smoothie & cookies successful!well.2day my HL partner came over 2 my house but 1st we wen 2 rvm cos hm hadnt had lunch yet so we wen in 2 KFC & eat while deciding wad we shall make.thus we finalised we shall make banana smoothie!thn after eating we wen straight 2 NTUC & buy the ingredients needed thn we oso decided 2 add in & make cookies.but it is ready-made cookies.kind of.juz add water thn ownself bake it out.hahas.thn on the way home we buy coco buns 2 eat.lols.reach home we quickly mix the cookie mix thn roll into ball thn put on the oven thingy.lols.u can c the difference betwn me & hm's cookies.hers so bian thn mine so rounded.hahas.thn put in oven & bake thn while baking we made the banana smoothie wif the help of my mum of course.lols.althou our banana smoothie supposed 2 add ice cream but it still turned out nice & sweet too.^^kkies.stop here lers.dad's sis coming over! hahas.today went to rvm for dinner with my parents and my bro.thn after dinner we stocked up on my bro's stuff that he needed for ns.thn we wanted to buy shampoo for him and was choosing the anti-dandruff over the silky and smooth 1 whn suddenly we rmb he was going to be close to bald anyway!thn we started laughing trying to imagine his blad head all smooth and clean.lols.thn later dad asked if he needed a comb thn we started laughing again and said nth for him to comb.lols.thn pay for all we bought and it amounted to $80 sum thing!waa.spend so much.thn we went straight home while he go cut hair lers.still,it looked the same to me.i expected some thing more..drastic.lols.yay~ tmr my HL partner coming over to do sum thing.dunno wad.bake?blend?lols. wow.finally today i am able to eat my home cooked food but this time my dad cooked.he says its: 'father's day lunch' lols.waa.i see the food immediately feel so relieved it wasnt rice again.well.it is partly rice.(its porridge)thn ytd went to eat steamboat dinner with family.finally 1st time after a long period of time we finally ate as a family again.thn after eating dinner,we sent sis to suntec there thn the rest of us went to walk at esplanade there and me and mum ate ice cream.waa.this is my after camp luxury.lols.thn not before long thn we bo liaos thn went home lers.hahas.feel like laughing sia.found out camp chief's name is rio ferdinan.i told jr he sounded like some soccer star and really there is a man u defender named rio ferdinan but was banned since he didnt went for some drug test!lols.imagine camp chief as the soccer star.no ways.lols.darn it with my sunburnt face gt sunburnt thus the 'blackface' came abt.lols.overall camp sucked.but e instructors were kinda gd.only thing was e 'indian chief'(camp chief)& e food.tt 3 days always had 2 force it dwn.of all,i tink e 1st day was e best cos it was dragonboating.hwever tiring it was,it was satisfying since my grp 11 won e race btween 2 other grps.thn there r other activities lyk e low & high elements.but so dui lian whn i cried trying 2 do e rock climbing cos tt lkk force me go up-.- so after tt didnt had e guts 2 try zip line(e 1 i looked most forward 2)thn there were other small activities which required teamwrk oso.thou it was tough but we still did hab fun.last day every1 looked damn happy.lols.e moment i reached cp headed straight 4 BK thn drank so much coke coulda choked myself.lols.tt's hw sugar deprived i was.thn still having my leukaemia scare since during camp all these blueblacks appeared on my legs w/o me even banging on anything!shall wait till it goes away...
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