u noe u make me feel so real
i love u more than sex appeal
(Cause you're)
that-tha, that tha, that-tha, that girl

hahas..juz kidding abt the above..juz song lyrics ya?frm the black eyed peas..song title is dont phunk with my heart..hahas..siianx..i noe i supposed to b studying but thn absolutely no mood and concentration so i went online..unfortunately no 1 pei me talk..;( oh well..today me so ke lian sia..yy and hm nv come to sch..1 is ear gt prob. and the other is dwn wif fever respectively..humpf~ so me gu dan yi ge ren thn kanna stupid ping ping ball bully..say wad yy and hm nv come thn i so lonely thn argue a lot with me..crap lehs he..really has such big mouth..he can nv keep secrets man..hahas..oh well..today nt tat bad really..whole day lyk free period liaos..hahas..thn today krishnan suddenly in gd mood and gave us chocs..hahas..surprising hur?but mayb cos today all the 'criminals' in our class are not there..so mayb he in gd mood that he dun have to shout at any of us today..hahas..okies lahs..so siianx..nth to post liaos... ... good gracious..nw i'm going crazy over takuya kimura aft watching the jap. show GOOD LUCK! lols..damn..even thou he may b 33 yrs old this yr but he is still damn shuai lors..lols..come on..even brad pitt is 40 yrs old still many ppl lyk him 2..hahas..humpf! intending 2 buy vcd if possible..but i cant watch it on my comp since my speakers dun wrk & rite nw cant buy oso since its coming 2 mid yrs already..damn..means i cant watch much of the show either..*sobs* nooo..they cant do this 2 me!!humpf! damn those mid yrs..grrr..great! nw wat am i to do!?i mite go crazy missing the episodes..i already am crazy aft missing the frnt few episodes..dunno hw many i missed sum more! siianx..thn today kanna splashed a lot of water..lols..hm kanna the most..thn 2pid POA test cant balance again -.- tried so many times & i wen frustrated over it..2pid POA..anyways..nt a v.great day..so boring lers..yay~ but surprising today i gt highest 4 my variations maths test..wif joanna scoring the same marks wif me thou..& adeline haven teach me yet sum more!thn miss seet gave me choc & it melted~!-.- so squishy..lols..okies..i'd better run lers..do my eng. hw..damn..nw i'm so afraid of comprehensions tat r given out by krishnan..i see them i freak out!lols..takuya kimura is mine! muahaha..rite nw using my cousin's comp..ytd left s'pore at ard 5 sum thing thn drove dwn to malacca thn reached ah ma house at 9 sum thing liddat thn waited 4 an uncle until 10 sum thing thn drove dwn to kl..to my ah kor house and me and bro slept all the way..yaa..PIGS..hahas..thn reached ah kor house late in the nite thn evry1 eat supper together..eat the fried oyster all the way frm malacca thn i tired thn fell aslp till nxt day 8 sum thing i woke up thn bathe and get ready for the groom to arrive..i managed to sneak a peek at the bride(cousin)..thn so gao xiao..the groom had to come thru the gate but he wasnt allowed in the bride's rm of course..thn he had to say 6 times of ilu in 6 diff. languages..he said ilu in jap. but he said wrongly! he said :"ai shitter u" lols..but since he tried oh well..thn he had to give angbao to the jie meis..hahas..aft finally being able to see the bride they bth went dwn and offered tea to their parents and elders..blah blah..thn later suddenly i and my bro were pulled in as 'escorts'..but were later rewarded with an angbao..hahas..okies..shant type anymore..gt sum "interruption" haiix..i dun think i'd ever recover man..whole body always feeling so damn sore & tired..feel lyk i'm already 70 yrs old wif rheumatism or sum thing..thn my headache wun go away oso..eyes keep on wanting 2 shut & i dun lyk sunlight!bright light makes my head hurt whn i look at it..thn today nearly late 4 sch..ok lahs..actually dun wan 2 go 2 sch becos of the dreaded male dentist who tortured my classmates but thn decided 2 go still..thn i muz b very long nv walk lers..cos my legs all feeling jelly-like & my walking look so weird..hahas..hmm..thn today oso nth much lahs..oso still as tired..wif block nose & back sore 2 add so i was squirming in my seat the whole day,making me look more lyk jellyfish..lols..thn today escaped dentist(they didnt call me).thn aft sch wen 2 cp & eat lunch wif hm & 2 other erm..'invited' ppl..lols..thn aft lunch came home & plopped dwn on my bed & fell in2 deep slp..but had 2 close the blinds 1st..i feel lyk vampire sia..i dun lyk bright lights & sunlight either..but my skin nt tat fair..so i will juz go wif the tanned vampire..hahas.. urghh..whole body kinda sore cos ytd and today i practically slpt the whole day cos of my 2pid fever..friday nite the fever started thn on sat slpt in 4 almost the whole day..only woke up 2 eat my dinner(duck porridge-.-) and the occasional visits 2 the toilet..mum woke me up 2 eat my dinner..i was so weak tat my hands were shaking and i couldnt even lift up a glass of water..finally ate a bit thn had more energy..thn today also slpt 4 the whole day..only woke up 4 dinner again.thn still had mild fever so whole family wen 2 PP 2 eat dinner thn on the way go see doctor..found out i got sum 2pid viral infection..so tml mc..okay lahs..nw feeling very tired liaos..stop here lers.. sum times i think they are rite u noe..u are really freakingly annoying at times..i get damn frustrated but juz tat i wun say only..i have been bearing with it for very long ler lehs..evrything u do make me so damn blardy fed up..grr..forget it..i shall juz keep my gap shut when its too much..anyways i am using the comp in my rm now since the internet connection is already set up lers..so far no problem..hmm..but i must stop my addiction to the comp since mid yrs are coming soon..and yet another event popping up and she's making me really irritated again..i really think that evrything sure always my fault de lehs..wadever happens to ur "beloved" thn i would b the 1 behind it all hur?!sum times u are fine u know but thn other times juz v. annoying..u wan to bug me thn leave me out of it..go bug sum 1 else.. it aint easy but i am going to try..today was yet another trying day..acting happy was easy..but how the hell am i supposed to forget all when every single day i hear the name and i see that person practically everyday and i hear the voice every single damned day!and wont u feel angry if u didnt hear a single hint of sadness in the voice?! crap..i really want to hate but why cant i bring myself to?!grr..i am trying so hard but i fail evrytime..i feel damn foolish..forget it..i am really gonna try and prove to u i can get along with it..hmms..thn today nth really much happened..juz planning a lot of things for the next weekend for a particular event..hahas..cant say much or else its leaked out..hmm..but i do hope tat day will be memorable and fun~ okies..i shall be a good girl and go study for my maths test..lols
p.s thankies to meiyun and jeannie for cheering me up toos~ *hugs* thnx 2 my HL other(hm),nerdy(vonne) & swampy(kaela)!i feel way better nw..stronger..ok lahs..thnx 2 the paper bear 2..paper bear sound so experienced..lols..i dreaded gng 2 sch today bt actually things were quite fine lahs..juz a little sad but now feel okay..i xpected it anyway..evrything tat has a beginning has an end..hahas..humpf! today so fed up..2pid pub head made the back the notice board so awful looking..lols..me & hm tried 2 help 2..& tat pub head lyk nv do anything de lehs..lols..even the chocolate man & the 'tico peh' helped us..lols..thn today i wen 2 IMH!!lols..no lahs..juz a sch cca trip.be4 gng the principal saw us & ask where we gng thn we said IMH & he looked shocked..lols.bt aft xplaining thn he was lyk..oh..lols..so nice sia..me & hm had so many crazy laughters @ there & we really looked lyk 1 of the mental ppl..lols.bt still IMH really looked lyk a holiday resort..lols.bt 2 bad we didnt get 2 c the wards lahs..juz had a talk abt it..oh well..there's always another time..hahas..thn cum back 2 sch & it started raining heavily..& i kept screaming cos of the 2pid bright lightning & loud thunder..hw i h8 it..kk..g2g nw loving u is easy but giving up is difficult..i cant forget u..so how i wish i could turn back time and erase all the memories of u..then it wont be so painful now..
haiix..guess i was expecting it to happen anyway..but it still does hurts..i feel depressed..i really dont want to go to school tomorrow..1 moment i feel like i am on top of the world and the next i am falling dwn crashing on the hard ground..with no one to save me..haiix..was all the words that came out frm ur mouth just lies?are all the things u used to say are just lies?god..i feel like shit now..i dont want to see u tomorrow..not ever..but how the hell am i gonna do that when u are just there?!when i still have2 f**king more years to go?!damn it..u could have told me earlier..just tell me..at least i didnt had my hopes that high yet..and i was still kinda mentally and emotionally prepared..god..i look and feel like a fool now..i want to hate u but i cant bring myself to..i just hate myself..easiest way out..haiix..shall stop here now..no use saying it here anyways..
xian zai cai fa jue wo zhen de shi ge da bai chi..da ben dan..shi bai..wo hao hen wo zi ji..hen xiang ku,ke shi zhen de ku bu chu lai..wei shen me ni mei you zao shuo?hai wo sha sha de gen ai shang ni..tai chi le..wo zuo bu chu ni xiang yao wo zuo de..wo wang bu liao ni..dui bu qi...... yes..those stupid lizards..i was in the bathroom getting ready to bathe when the stupid lizard popped out near the toiletbowl there and i screamed..lols..lucky my dad didnt hear thou..he too busy in his room..icks..thn no choice since my parent's rm the toilet cant be used by me so had to share the toilet wif the lizard..-.- tried to drown it wif the water frm my shower head but was unsuccessful..lols..so had to bear wif it and thn quickly ran out of the toilet aft my bath..this morning worse lors..the lizard near the towels there thn i didnt want to even touch those damned towels..lols..eww..i so hate lizards..anyways today kinda boring lahs..just another crappy day... ...
haiix..bu zhi dao gai zhe me zuo cai hao..jue de zi ji hen shi bai..shen me dou bu gan zuo..wo zhen shi ge shi bai.. heyys..dad's home ytd nite and guess wad he bought back?9 bottles of shampoo!!and 2 bottles of conditioner!!-.- i think those shampoos can last for a least a few mnths man..thn he also got 2 boxes of mangoes!!but he said it was free?gosh..we can have mango fight if we want..lols..or shampoo fighting..lols..here's how we play:take a bottle of shampoo and start squirting ur opponent till the shampoo runs out..lols..yeahh i know i am lame but come on..9 bottles of different type of shampoos?!plus he bought 3 bags of snacks?!but all like the same liddat..all my mum's fave:cuttlefish..-.- eww..nw i gt phobia of cuttlefish..lols..okies..nth much to write now...
wo hao hai pa..bu zhi ni shuo de shi zhen hai shi jia..xing wang ni suo shuo de dou shi zhen hua..bu yao zai xia wo le,ye bu yao pian wo..wo ye fa shi yao hao hao dui ni ke shi wei she me wo zong jue de hao hai pa?ni yi lai wo de nao zi jiu kong le..nan dao zhe shi ai mah? haiix..so many problems in my head now..worries..anger..frustration..sadness..argh!i feel like juz going to the beach 1 day and juz relax..hearing the sound of the ocean and the smell of the sea breeze and walking on the sands with no shoes on and juz leaving all worries behind..carefree and free frm evrything..feel really depressed again..nan dao quan bu de dong xi dou shi wo de cuo mahs!?am i really such a burden!?i feel so depressed..want to runaway frm my cold and empty home and away to australia where everything seems so carefree and back with kaela again..i wan to run away and travel all around the world without having to worry abt anything and see things i nv seen bfore..and get close to nature..i wan to get out frm this hellhole..juz runaway frm this stupid place i call my home..and my stupid life..i wan to see the skies all blue with nice fluffy clouds and beautiful greenery around..still hurts..hurts so much that i am nt back there again..hurts so much to think that i would not be able to see kaela again..hurts so much..regret that i went there bfore thn things wouldnt be like that..can i just runaway?
run.run.run..away frm my home..away frm my life..throw my worries and sadness away... stupid sia..today during chinese lesson and after ting xie thn i had to go and read out my bao zhang..lols..nervous lors..thn cant help keep on laughing thn i tried to read to the whiteboard but the teacher dun allow..lols..but thn later the paper bear too much liaos..so i really scared thn i asked yvonne to read first..thn i see her read like so easy like dat thn no choice go back up there and read..but thn luckily they make too much noise to bother abt me reading so it was fine..only teacher hear nia..scored 13 outta 20..heyys..nt tat bad sia..at least i passed~lols..thn hm gt 12 and yvonne gt 14..hahas..thn this week dunno hw many times krishnan say i so guai sia..lols..but actually is not lah hors..hahas..evry1 hate him so much cos he dwn there scold them too much liaos..sianxx..nth to write here lers lahs..suan le..me go do other stuff liaos..
wo hao xiang nian ni wors,xiang dao wo kuai yao feng ler..ni zhi bu zhi dao?bu yong jing..fan zhen mei yi tian dou neng gou kan dao ni wo jiu man zu ler..zhi xi wang ni ye shi zai xiang wo... hahas..today for cca we had to decorate the staff toilet at each level..lols..1st we started off at the 4th level and had to go to decorate the guys toilet..the girls decorating wif us seem so excited liddat lors..siao 1 lehs..wad ish so exciting abt deocrating the guys toilet?!lols..thn every level also muz go in to the toilet and so excited liddat..lols..thn after finish decorating,ansar gt crazy idea and ask us to take photo in the girls toilet with the toopid decoration..-.- but we got him to take 1 of himself too..lols..haiix..thn today so sad sia..some things not meant to be said were leaked out..feel guilty and sad..hope nt angry wors..sorry..;( thn after cca today we(cy,hm and me) saw krishnan thn he ask us whether he today v.harsh or not..cy said yes i said no(bo bian) thn later he went into a crazy tirade abt hw girls shld nt touch guys..-.- we nv did lors!bcos the guys bully us thus we used bks to hit them back thn he so kan jiong liaos..lols..thn me cant help it kept laughing at him.lols..thn he say:"levina..why are u laughing?am i that funny?"lols..
yesh..i very guai wors duckie..unlike u..huai dan!hahas..;p dont angry wors..;( lols..today i woke up so early sia..woke at 5:30 and i thought it was 6:30 and i was going to be late so i rushed and bathe and my brother was also awake but he juz needed to go to the loo..thn he told me that it is so scary to see me so early wake up..lols..i was confused as i still thought it was 6:30! thn after i bathe finished,i ran to my room and rushed to tie my hair but thn i looked at my alarm clock thn i realised it was on 5 sum thing..lols.stupid sia..hai me wake up so early thn after tying my hair thn had nth to do so i juz sat on the sofa until time pass thn i wen to sch..but today was a bad day cos i had stomach pain lahs..so pain till i felt like crying but still held on..thn today after sch gt chem. remedial..and i shall rmb nt to ever go home alone with that lunatic!!ppl kept giving us weird stares okays!i tried to run away but tat lunatic juz pulled me back!urggh..i need a bodyguard to send me back home safely..lols..okies..i gt to stop here lers..
I'm too lost in you... wong hoong chun u better watch out..u are gonna regret wad each and evry 1 of the hurtful things you did to others..to think i even pitied you because others bullied you!now i think u deserved wad u got!u dont deserve other's kindness!i think u dont even deserve my respect..u really are heartless..and an idiot!how could u hurt others over and over again and use them thn later throw them away like their are a piece of garbage?!how could u treat them like they are ur slaves!?how could u?!and they still forgive u!i cant believe it either..if it was me i wouldnt have even forgive u..never will i!u nv change do you?!ur whole family is a bunch of rich snobs!even if ur family isnt included in this but they are still the 1s who brought u up..u really are a heartless jerk.. trying not to blow up lehs..but seems like evrything i do always seem to be i at fault de lors..u love hm so much thn go marry her lahs!u ask me call thn end up i dwn there like so dian deng pao lors..i laughed over tv show also cannot mahs?!u asked some thing to her hw i noe?!u nv even say who!?gd lahs..pretend i am nt there can liaos..nt tat i jealous or anything lehs..but juz tat nxt time say who u toking to lahs..hw the hell i noe lors..thn i reply thn muz say wad..not me..state kindly thank you haiix..today supposed to b so happy 1 but i woke up late thn didnt go to sch thn gt huge scolding frm my mother..stupid lahs..feel so sucks..hate my family..hate myself..stupid family..juz cant seem to be able to say anything to them..nth to say to them evryday..become so cold and distant..my family is so empty..feel like turning back time to when we were still in aussie where evrything to us was still new and we were always together..nw..we dont even have dinners together anymore..seems like i am the cause of it cos u have to pay for so many things for me..hate myself..seem to only be a pain in the neck..thinking of dying..isnt that way better hur?!thn they will be prob. much more happier and wun make them so worried and angry..i die thn better wad!..lesser mouths to feed lahs!stupid life..dad used to say hw proud he is of me & my siblings..dont think i duno..is u actually are ashamed of having me as ur daughter cos i did not achieve anything to make u feel proud..evrything i do seems to always be wrong..i always make too many mistakes..i nv ever did sum thing rite.am i really such a burden?i cant nv seem to talk to any1 at home..evry1 gets along well with each other but i am the only 1 who juz cant seem to have anything to say to u all!all the things i wanted to ask and talk to u all abt..i juz cant find the right time and thing to say..evry1 is so cold..so empty..am i the only 1 here in the dark!?seems like no 1 is willing to say a thing to me!?evrytime i see each and evry1 of u,i juz have a blank mind..nth to say at all!i am the one always in the wrong!y cant u juz stop scolding me and juz tell me!i noe sum times i have gone too far and i always use too much of the comp.but im trying too!i am trying to strive for gd results too!it jus aint easy!i slp late bcos i am used to it!i cant slp early!even if i did try i would juz roll here & there and eventually fall aslp the same time i usually slp!thn my rm has always been like that..i try to keep it neat and organized but if i do that i juz cant rmb where i put them!why cant u all juz understand and leave it as it is and stop bugging me!?now i have even nth more to say to u all..i try evry single day to think up of sum thing to talk to u all but all of u juz seem to ignore me..i tried but no 1 seems to hear me!forget it..fine..juz leave me alone..mayb that is better...
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