haix..my weekend started badly..this morning woke up late and didnt make it for my tution thus 10:30 in the morning kanna scolding by mother..last thing i needed was to be scolded in the early morning..and also to be told to go and die by my own mother..obviously i hated it and tears rolled dwn..unstoppable thus today whole day gt swollen eyes.my life sucks a lot..seems like the moment i was born everything i do seems to be a mistake..never have i done something right.all my life..everything turns wrong so i am envious of my siblings..they seem to lead a perfect life cleared of any unwanted blemish while i seem to have millions of them that i cant seem to get rid of and do sum thing right for the 1st time in my life.so i felt terrible the whole day..felt like a loser and also felt like doing what i was told:go and die.but obviously i am afraid of dying..dunno which way better:jump dwn floors or to suffocate myself?or poison myself?1st 1 i cant do that..the landing too hard so i dun wanna die ugly..anyways..feel like an outcast..i cant seem to get along with any of my family members.communication problems..even striking a conversation with them is difficult..maybe i am right..i was found in a rubbish dump and no 1 wanted me so they took pity of me thn took me in..i clearly miss aust. a lot..everything is so peaceful there and it seems like paradise..so happy... ... hehes..last paper ended today..wished i get to go out and watch movie..*sobs* too many movies i wanna watch but cant watch!!anyways..today after sch me and hm walked at the hdb void deck there and on the way to cp and in front of us was 2 girls.then they suddenly screamed but me and hm thought nothing mahs so continued walking until suddenly a cat rushed out(ran like crazy!nv see cat run like tat lehs..) towards us!it was so sudden that me and hm also screamed..lols..scary lehs..i tot the cat was gonna jump on me or attack my legs like that lehs..lols..thn walked to cp there thn me and hm saw sum 1 that looked like mr raffi..thn hm told me that she tot tat was raffi wearing goggles thn i heard wrongly and tot it was raffi thn i waved at that stranger!thn hm tell me again thn i realised its not him!!waseh..so xia suay..lols..waved at a complete stranger..hahas..juz nw cooked fried rice for my dinner..lols..but too salty liaos..hahas..i wonder if later gonna get food poisoning sia..hahas..anyways..erm..feeling a little confused..ppl saying this and tat..dunno which is true..okay..erm..dont care so much for me okies?i dont really need ppl to care for me..err..hard to put to words lahs!i shall go off for now... great..i failed another subj..*sobs*..maths so difficult!!even benjamin(the maths 'genius') said it was difficult..thn the rest lehs?haix..i hope my results actually turn out fine..but it would prob. take a miracle to do so..:( thn poor shafiqah too..she stomachache thn went to toilet thn when come back thn had no time to finish thn she prob. did only 1 question cos stomachache thn cant concentrate..:( haix..tml last paper lers..geography..haix..:( :( :( ya..i think i am gonna fail them all!! today was social studies and science..social studies only 1 question only! but then then part a of it was very difficult..cant rmb hw to distinguish between malaya's and singapore's political system..waseh..then how come i seem to write so little only lors?! every1 else all write so much lehs..die..i think i failed this 1..thn science not that bad..but the mcq quite difficult too..haix..afraid that i am going to fail lots of subjects..anyways..today the chinese papers we received today..hahas..our sch gonna be popular man..lols..tanya chua taking pic with us..wah..i was close to being photographed but luckily i turned my head away at the right time..phew..hahas..today had chicken rice for dinner..but this time is mum cooked 1..hmm..definitely preferred mum's chicken rice than any other chicken rice(no matter hw nice theirs are..) because mum cooks them with lurrve..hahas..mm..judging the way i eat the chicken rice..nearly wanted not to leave anything for my bro..but thn i also saw..blood! on the chicken!! reminds me of the time i had to cut the chicken thn blood came out thn cried on the spot..hahas..i have feelings for dead chickens..okiex..gotta go and mug for tml's CAs.. *sobs* i am gonna die soon and faster too..hahas..CAs are coming!!**insert horrified screaming here**..lols..die lahs..1st day jiu poa lerx..at least nw can understand after attending the remedial..darn..but still scared lahs..no confidence in doing well..nt only this subj..but all of them!:( haix..this is the last u will ever hear of me! since ca come liao cant use comp and i will already prob. be dead by then..or either crying away knowing i sure failed loads of subj..hahas..okiex..i shall go off and mug liaos...

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more..

sway by michael buble. this month is rainy season..hahas..if u get what i mean..haix..ok..i am sorry for touching those books okay?!and giving them to someone else to see!thn i am sorry on behalf of wad that silly isabella said! i never did ask her to say those things! is yvonne tell her thn she either buay song u or some thing else thn say de..today so sianx..even more sianx when u have 1 person sitting nxt to u keep on telling u that she so sad..how sad..and hw she miss her "laopo"(jus a game)..and how tired or so tired she is..aiyo! feel damn pek cek de lehs..okiex lahs..such a boring day nth more to say either..*duckie*
i am not a person you use just to make yourself look cool in front of guys so go look for some other person to make use of and leave me alone! ...and i will go puking!!arghh!!is chicken rice all my parents will ever buy back whenever mum goes on strike and doesnt cook?!yucks!now i have phobia of chicken rice..lols..sianx..thn today si kirshnan scold so much sia..scold scold scold..also not our fault what right..if the class dirty it is always sum 1 behind it de lorx..the rest try to keep clean but that sum 1 sure dirties it later..hahas..thn today..we got scolded because our class window so dusty that some "sick" person went to write vulgarities on it..thn we all got big lecture and the ppl on duty today kanna scolding too..lols..thn had to clean..haix..but thn today 1st period already my day started off badly..haixx..sad sad..:( stupid chemistry..poa..and of course chinese..cant get it in..:( okiex..i shall stop here lerx..feel sick after eating stupid chicken rice... ... yeah..bowled over by tom felton..hahas..thn robert pattinson..lols..so many hollywood actors and all of them so shuai..hahas..silly me..but really lahs..jeremy sumpter..orlando bloom..and i can go on the list..lols..hais..if only there was a miracle and my wish to meet all on my "to meet" list..lols..thn i would be the happiest woman on earth..hahahas..but obviously my wish shattered a long long time ago and its definitely impossible..so..back to reality..haix..shattered wish..if i got an infinity amount of money..i would so happy to travel to hollywood!!hahas..thn prob. stalk those guys dwn..hahahas..no lahs..tat would prb. scare them to their deaths..okiex..i shall go back into my daydream and looking at my "prince charming's" pics..LOL
if a genie gave me three wishes, i would wish for infinity wishes!so i can have as many wish as i want..muahaha..i sound so greedy..but who isnt? blahs..bored off now..people all coming to my house and having "party" here..diaos~ stupid sia..sianx..supposed to be watching show "the best bet" but thn like nobody even interested to watch leh..so bored off and decided to come and use comp instead...blehs..and n0w every1 is busy playing with my 2 cutesy nieces too..*sigh* really damn boring..i wish i can escape now and go off to watch movie..lets see..i wanna watch constantine..and a moment to remember..i do i do..and...loads more lahx..but obviously too bad i cant lahx..haix..okiex..i go off ler lahx..:( hehehe..i know this skin looks freakingly red and scary too..but i dunno why i chose this skin either..just got some attraction..lols..i lurrve the bad kitty lahx..sorry to all the people who will suffer after reading my blog cause its wayy too red..hahax..eye sore right?not my fault..lurrve this skin too much liaos..sianxx..2 sum thing in the morning and my sister havent come home yet so thats why i am able to use the comp..nothing to do lahx..thn tml gonna have a "party"(yeah right) with relatives and stuff..hehe..add another angbao to my collection..so total for this year i got $228..hehe..nice number behind..i still wondering what to do with the money sia..i bet u by the end of this year(or maybe havent even by the end of this year),i'd have already used up all the money..yarr..i think so sia..lols..nvm..i shall try and save!!but knowing me..haix..okiex..sianx liao..need to sleep..eyes drooping...zZzZz... wahh..now got a baby in my house and a 3 yr old toddler..man..how come all the babies i see this year all so kawaii de?!1st was my 2 nieces chloe and cassia..now this baby in my house who is my mother's friend's child..absolute pretty..hahax..unlike my 2 nieces who are the absolute cutesy..hahax..i so in lurrve with my 2 nieces..i think i am gonna spoil them sia..lols..no other babies can compare with my 2 nieces!!lols..sianx..today feeling so darn angry over my stupid d&t teacher..walau eh..stupid lorx..we bring bag into the d&t room also kanna her nagging..very kp lehx..i was like:"why cannot bring in the bag lorx..gimme 101 reasons why we cannot bring in our bags." really very sucks lehx..she say because of our safety..and i was like..what?the bags will make us die or what..not like we gonna die tripping over our bag wad rite?wu liaos..mr lau also wont scold the others for bringing their bag lehx..thn rules also nv say dont bring bag to d&t rm..siao lehx she..grr..so hate her..but oh well..WHATEVER~ happy new year or happy lunar new year or wadever.. accumulated a total of $222 during the new year after getting so much angbaos..lols..intending to try and save it and not spend a single cent on it though..but i know i sure cant help it de..anyways..finally think that my younger cousins not really that bad..hmm..just the matter of tolerating them..lols..thn just yesterday i was with jolene at night at her house dwnstairs thn we 2 had a long long talk..since the rest of the people all so obsessed with their gamblings(not really lahx..)and since also we both so guai dun wan to waste our angbao money so we went dwnstairs to the playground..i accompany her thn we stayed there for at least a good whole hour..yarr..talking..and dipping our legs in the pool and wadever things we could think of..hahax..actually she's quite sensible lahx..prob. maybe just a little cheeky bahx..so finally i come to see my younger cousins in a new light..lols..sound ridiculous but oh well..lols..anyways..did i tell u my 2 nieces are soo damn cute?!arghh..i am in lurrve with them!lols..yarr..i feel old though..my nieces..chloe and cassia..chloe is like 3 yrs old and cassia like abt 1?absolutely total cuteness!~ i prefer cassia..her eyes are so pretty!but i treat them bth the same lahx..bth equally cute..^.^
happy new year eve peeps! blahx..such a boring new year eve oso..hahax..today in sch so sianx..same thing..every years there's always this stupid calligraphy contest..such a bore..thn after that went back to class for a while..krishnan says whoever doesnt come on friday wont get angbao frm him..diao~ we all know inside only got $2 lorx..hahax..thn later went to hall for the usual concert..every year sure got de..darn sian of it liaox sia..as usual..got wushu..dance..wind orchestra..blah blah..sat with hm behind me and yvonne in front of me..felt so extra..*winks* hahax..okiex..thn after concert practically went straight home and slept..hahax..until 3 like that?then ate our dinner!i know..so early rite?!then we finish dinner was only like 4pm nia lorx..every year out steamboat seems to always get lesser and lesser ingredients..but thn today so little but yet still cant finish..wahseh..we're really small eaters sia..hahax..phew..so far no sickness..hehex..no food poisoning like last yr..sianx..i shall stop here ler lahx..hehe..cant wait for tml's pineapple tarts and angbaos!! lols
heex..say cheese! *takes pic of ..... ...*
heex..ytd so happy..i wonder why..didnt even talk to me..i wanted to say sum thing but thn darn it..no guts to..but then saw the display pic..my duckie!!hahax..wu liaos horx me..hahax..right now i think soon my mum gonna go crazy sia..with my grandma outside complaining to go home..lols..and i shall listen to them..grandma doesnt even rmb who i am sia..sianx..later ade coming to my house for tution..yeahh finally finished all my darn homework lerx..i think..no wait..still left stupid lao kok kok's de english asessment book de..dunno hw to do then no answers..hahax..i thick stupid book..i wonder hw are we gonna gonna survive... ...
i dont care abt anything..just wanna see u happy...
today is such a boring day..cant wait for new year to come..hahax..today woke up at 8:15 then 8:30 had to go tution liaox..wish i was able to skipped tution and laze around..who wants a tution on a saturday lorx?!hahax..then after tution tried to use the comp in my room but failed..stupid comp got prob..deleted something important then cant start properly..i think later i shall try again and install jie buy de windows home edition de cd or whatever i should call it..dad still haven't buy the wireless network adapter..i think he is waiting for new year to come then take my ang bao money to buy it..hahax..okiex lahx..i dont mind..my money is kinda their money oso..wahh..then today during evening dad used this vacumn thingy to vacumn my bed and stuff..waseh..i didnt know my bed so dirrty sia..lols..okiex..i shall want to stop here lerx... ...

i wanna tell you..but i cant seem to find the right words to say.
stupid haircut..nxt time i shall never cut my hair until so short that i look like a secondary 1 student!yikes..regret having this stupid haircut..stupid lady said my fringe was not even so she cut until so short sia..walau..so angry..i so hate my hair!!i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!arghh..nearly cried over it ytd..lols..stupid..i still detest short hair..so cant blame me..hahax..then stupid hair stick out a lot when i let down..urghh..to make things worse,today took photo and just when i cut my hair and damn fringe so darn short..really remind me of last time i sec 1 de time..yucks..ka pui..i shall not go back to the place i cut my hair!!anyways, today so darn sianx sia..d&t wasnt any fun since the other part of our class was dwnstairs while we were upstairs..and stupid teacher was so sucks..kept on picking out whatever mistakes we have..complain so much..expect so much from us..haixyo..then i felt a little extra there also lahx..since..u know..so felt so extra sia..so mood wasnt that good either..felt like exploding but oh well..stuck with it..i vowed to stay happy rmb?hahax..okiex..nth more to say...
how come my life doesnt seem to have any miracles?mine seems to be so dull and boring... ...
today also actually nothing much really..just that d&t become more fun lerx..hahax..during d&t pass notes to the "other side"(the other class thru the stupid door thingy)..hahax..then today during d&t jordon was erm..touching his chest..lols..then turned to us and said he got breasts..hahax..thn said it was an A cup size..diao~ -.-" then later said that woman should all take off bras cause it causes breast cancer..thn i looked at teacher thn er..said why dont he asked teacher to do so..hahax..yarr..i know..so perverted..to think back,i dont even think it felt like me saying that!..hmm..must be my evil side..hahax..hm said more like perverted side -.-"..hahax..then we looked at teacher and laughed..darn..tml gonna die of laughter..lols..since tml gt 3 periods of d&t!!shit..gt poa test after sch as well..:(
me and my evil side..
yahoo~
although now not using the comp that has been just installed in my room but sooner i am gonna be able to use cause now still havent got the wireless netwrk adapter yet..yay~happy~!but of course there is rules too lahx..have to off the comp by 10pm everyday..i must control myself also..hahax..or else later become addicted..lols..anyways..today nothing happened really..today me and hm tot no cca so we left thn went to library read books..supposed to study for tmr's chem and chinese test de..but thn the temptation to read love stories(hm's temptation only!) was too strong..while she read books i wu liao go see recipe books..hahax..so nice sia..drooling over all the nice food..hahax..thn finally 5 sum thing like tat take mrt to punggol thn i took bus 82 back home..weird..i tot i saw tat just tea fellow's "twin"..lols..just tea fellow..hahax..look so like him sia~hahax..okiex..i shall stop here lerx..hoping tomorrow shall be a better day..

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