okiex..from now onwards i shall not cry or get so angry or worked up over such stupid stuffs liaox..i shall..smile over them..lols..i shall just be happy~hahax..so sorry for all those posts filled with vulgarities inside or with my stupid fury..so heck care abt those..lols..anyways today during poa arhx..so fun sia..never pay attention..lols..we had war! tat jr and jordon threw green beans and lcm papa(for fun..tt's wad i call him..hahax) and jy splashed water on meiyun,huimin and i..and pei yu also..hahax..stupid papa betray us!hahax..how can abuse daughter de!?lols..wah..we behind throw until siao sia..hahax..but poor us..kanna splashed with dirty water..yucks..hahax..^.^
tat idiot..i shall not trust tat idiot anymore..what shit did tat idiot say?!spread to all the others..fine! if that makes you happy,fine!u idiot..u shall see..since when did i ever played with ur damn feelings..who wants to play lorx?!u may think i think its fun..fine..whatever u want to think it is up to u..i so hate u..cant believe u are such a person..fine! point your accusing finger at me and let every1 say its my fault!grr..so angry..never felt this angry before..what shit did tat idiot say..tell the whole world..never mind..there's still a "zookeeper" to keep me happy..hahax..i shall not waste my breathe over an idiot like you..i shall not cry over such trivial matters..do what shit you like to make urself happy..i shall surpass u and be a better person unlike u..i will..just u wait and see and for the meantime..ppl..dont believe what tat idiot says..cause its all crap..and for the idiot..u'd better watch out..u will regret if u dont..dont u dare mess with me... ...
hahax..today during english lesson saw 2 little blackbirds outside sitting on the rail..so zhun sum more ish krishnan lesson..hahax..haixx..today so sianx..duckie didnt do much..now duckie busy in washing machine..hahax..but will only be back at 7pm..so late sia..poor duckie..lols..hmmx..me juz woke up from a long nap..dad watching tv..mum still sleeping away..tomorrow whole family(except sis cos she in bangkok)will be going to malaysia to visit ah ma and relatives..sianx..gonna be a long drive tml and i bet have to wake up early again..nvm..slp in car..hahax..okiex okiex..i go off here for now lerx..where's duckie?i miss duckie...
every1 juz fuck off lahx..leave me alone..it aint easy doing this either..dun ask anymore fucking questions..fine!it's all my fault!my damn fucking fault aint it!?shit this blardy mess i got myself in..i need space!leave me alone!save me from all the questions!what does it have to do with you people..get your noses off my case..what has happen already happened and sooner or later this will sure happened..fine!blame it all on me lahx..its all my fault..say whatever u want!say that i play with whosever feelings lahx!think what u want i dont give a damn no more..juz leave me out of this..u wouldnt want to mess with me when i get fed up..so stay out of this matter and just shut it abt what ever happened whatsoever..u can believe what shit that particular person tell u..its up to u to believe in who u want i dont give a damn to it and blame me or whatever..blame me but dont do it in front of me..assholes..grow up ppl..its time to give ppl their own privacy..dun intrude into ppl's lives can or not?!
i dun wanna die of my cough and flu!!new year coming lerx and i still got the flu and cough..aRgH!!nvm..i still can bear with it..with my rubber duckie around..hahax..poke its face..hahax..cute~ ^.^ my new found rubber duckie..lols..cant blame me too wad right..rubber duckie attracted me to it..hahahax..sianx..today bought another pair of earrings again..me arhx..seem to always spend so much money sia..non stop..lols..still cant imagine i bought those earrings..they were quite long and with my fave stars on it..hahax..while my other HL half bought doggie earrings..thn after buy ler jiu leave thn i took bus 83 all the way until her stop there..she wait wif me for bus 82 thn be4 the bus come sum guys approached us..wah..we damn scared sia..we tot they wanted us to get in their car..since 1 guy sit in the car so like..kidnappers or sum thing..thn actually only wanted to ask where the mrt was..-.-" see lahx!krishnan scare us too much ler lahx!!lols..okiex..i stop here for nw lerx..
- + my rubber duckie~ + -
i dun undertand myself..i dun understand what is wrong..what did i do wrong..i always seem to be at fault..i hate this life of mine..its all my fault isnt it?!i am always the 1 who has to apologise..i am always the 1 who is wrong..when can i ever be right?!what can i do to make things right?!i am so selfish arent i?i only think abt myself nt abt others..is it that?i am such a loser and whatever shit stuff u can call me..guess i deserved it myself..to heck with my life...

i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me
i am sick and yet i can get up here and post this..darn my stupid flu and sore throat..if tml i cant speak its not my fault..urrgh..i hate this!feel so uncomfortable..tried to sleep but just cant sleep..sum more today krishnan say..he sick because maybe he did sum thing wrong..wahh..so i sick..but what did i do wrong?!haixx..been too healthy for so long..now this sickness strike me i feel so weak..cant cope with the damn flu..and of course the stupid sore throat..feel like crying here..hahax..stupid right?cry over such small matters..lols..feel soooooo sick..am i dying now?haixx..new year coming lerx and i am so sick..like last year like that 1st day of new year kanna food poisoning..lols..dun tell me this year...kanna flu..walau eh..imagine me taking ang bao and tissue together..hahax..thn say gong xi f-AH CHOO..lols..thn sneeze all over the poor victim..hmmx..good idea oso horx..hahahax..okiex..stop here for now..too sick to continue..see u in heaven..LOL
hahax..1stly just now supposed to have tution de..but thn i reached adeline's house and she wasnt there!but the worst thing is she was in KL!!made me look so stupid sia..thn had to call my mum and tell her and dad to pick me up again..hahax..thn got back into car thn driving out thn nearly had accident with a stupid taxi..taxi at fault..he suddenly cut into the other lane without signalling..thn my dad jerked the car thn sum more me nv wear seat belt..scare me to death sia..lols..sianx..thn we bth drop my mum at bedok 1 hairdresser's house..ish those house hairdresser or sum thing de..thn we bth went to defu there to eat dinner..mm..lurrve the fried oyster..yum..dad ate char kway teow..eat finish liaox..thn went home and my brother still snoring away..hahax..kekex..nth much to say lerx..off for now..
i lurrve maroon5's sunday morning..today really like sunday morning..hahax..today had to wake up at 8 am for tution..so tiring..i hate tuiton on saturdays!make saturdays not fun..lols..haix..today nth much happened really..so boring..later going out with mum..shopping or whatever..yikes..yesterday saw ping pong ball..eeks..hope he never see me sia..or else monday go back sch he sure will suan me de..ytd so sucks also..mum pulling me off to try so many clothes..i so hate shopping!lols..okiex..have to stop here..i guess i am boring u off liaox..hahax
hahax..i am the maid in training..today had to clean up the kitchen walls..climb up here and there to clean..i think if joel was here he would lurrve to climb here and there as if spiderman like tat..lols..too bad he juz so short so cannot reach where i can..muahaha..waseh..but my hands so sore liao..my dad nw outside making the pineapple tarts..but thn only started on the pineapple thingy..i mean squeeze the pineapple into..?dunno how to explain lahx..lols..yay!got pineapple tarts to eat lerx!i will surely be the 1 who finish all de..lols..mum's pineapple tarts are the best..thn mum nw ironing clothes..phoo..bro went to work..sis went out wif bf?hahax..okiex..tats all for now... ...
I'm tired of rumors starting... ...
haix..i am tired tired tired.i dun wanna hear anymore teasing and questions!why did they seem to know abt yesterday??do they even know about every single thing?!haixx..can i go back to being what i was before?i regret my decisions.haixx..headache.confusion.depression.if i do what i think i gonna do thn it seems unfair..but if i dont do it also seems unfair?rr..why cant u juz let me do..all the things i wanna do?!thn today so angry..tat stupid d&t teacher of mine lahx..walau eh..tok non stop..so damn boring..whole lesson abt what she expect from us..walau..imagine she grow old liao still like tat de naggy..thn tat stupid donation thingy in cp oso..walau eh..my allowance flew away liaox..this is the second time i donated lorx!next time dun donate liaox..they bully students!why dont they go to the adults!?since adults got more money thn us wad..bully sch students..rr..in such a bad mood today..can u please respect my privacy?
dunno why these few days feel so tired and keep on getting stupid headaches..moment i reach home i would juz jump on my bed thn fall asleep liaox..so tired..damn it..practically every1 noes..-.-" haix..sounds like the past...dun feel like thinking abt it right now..haixx..damn damn tired..dont feel like waking up tomorrow..feel like going on a deep sleep and not waking up..everyday seems the same..like deja vu..okiex..practically nothing for me to say..even if there was..i dun feel like saying anyway......
my life seems like a bore..dull and grey... ...
lols..yesh..school sucks!esp black bird..but of course i am no racist lahx..juz tat he really darn boring..evry lesson sure makes me feel like slping de..evry 1 of his lessons..heyy even yvonne gets bored during his lessons..and u noe yvonne ish da supernerd who seems absorbed in studies gets bored in black bird's lesson means black bird is eally boring and dull and the only jokes and stories he noes how to tell are pervereted 1s..thn he seem to always tells us stories of cancer patients and whatever sick patients he can think of..i'm nt being rude..juz tt why cant he say sum thing else for a change lorx..haix..shit..my maths still cannot finish..almost finishing my textbk de..but wrkbk 1 haven started..;p..black bird 1 haven do the newspaper cutting nia..kekex..think i'd better stop here liaox and go back in doing my darn homeworks..;p *peace out` cheerios+

waseh..i wonder wad happen sia..the whole of 3c all noes..lols..practically today the whole day the guys ask me..thn today cheryl aka my papa go and "announce" -_-" she shouted so loud in the corridor there..aiyo..my own papa so embarassing de..lols..oh no..today given so much homewrk..all becos of black bird lahx!lols..hmmx..i wonder why these few days cant think of what to write in the post de..lols..like suddenly my mind go blank liaox..okiex bahx..shall nt say no more..lurrves u~
hmmx..tell u nt to waste money lerx!!lols..see lahx..nw i feel so guilty..i cant find sum thing nice for u!sobs..oops..today left u behind..lols..sry! i went to hand in da stoopid maths hw..so difficult to ask them to pass up sia..feel like telling ah lee i bu gan ler!lols..haixx..waseh..thn ah lee bian tai de!give us so much hw!struggle to do finish..today dunno wad to post here..mind blank..hahax..cant think of anything lehx... ...
laa dee daa..u still so shy..hahax..wad abt me?..hahax..still feeling tense but relax dwn a bit more lerx..lols..okiex bahx..i dun say anything else..later ppl read i die die sia..humpf!today thse guys in class still bully me..say those things abt louis again-_-"nvm..i wun care them lerx..immature ppl ish like tat de..hmmx..my poor HL partner..lols..dun sho sad bahx..thse problems either ignore them and let them be or either make things clear??dunno lehx..so darn complicated de worx..who ish de baddie and who ish de goodie??cheer up..wait for the post!lols..u noe..kekex..go off here lerx..talk to my bear bear^-*
haix..another unexpected thing..stupid 2c guys all ganging up against me!all anyhow making me annoyed..grr..for 1 last time and for godness i do not like louis wong lahx!he's my kor lorx..say dunno hw many million times liao it doesnt go to their head!esp tat ping pong head lahx..waseh..i think of all he's the loudest u noe..say dunno wad marriage or wadever craps..great..practically all against me..haix..even the zhong kai whom i tot he nv tease me be4 de..haix..going crazier..this is worse thn last time mervin annoy me lehx..lols..this time more ppl..grr..wad am i gonna do!?nw practically whole class think i like louis liao..stupid..immature jerks.sry..go off liao..headache..hahax
"your optimism and self-confidence might set off a chain of unexpected events this week.emotional outbursts,confessions and confusion over someone's behaviour may throw you off"
grr..another unexpected event happened today..juz when i thought it wouldn't happen..but it did! and so embarassing!i wun say wad happen cos too...err..embarassing liao..lols..grrr..i got 3 ppl on my "wanted" list..1st in list wu jian rong!he gonna pay for what he say..grr..wad kind of kor is he man!?humpf!dun buy b'day present for u liaox!2nd on list is tat si ken yong..say embarassing thing again..3rd is tat si gao hui..rrr..so angry..tats why got headache..lols..zZz..i think i go off ler bahx..headache very painful...
"your optimism and self-confidence might set off a chain of unexpected events this week.emotional outbursts,confessions and confusion over someone's behaviour may throw you off" hahax..a CHAIN of unexpected events?!a CHAIN?!come on..i was already shocked to death yesterday and nearly had a heart attack..lols..2 lives down 7 more to go..hahax..1st live gone when at kfc the stupid banner thingy fell in front of me and scare me to death..hahax..thn 2nd was ytd...sum err..confessions shocked me to death and turn my whole body so cold...damn..and i am gonna expect MORE unexpected events?!gimme a break!i dun wanna die faster lehx..lols..kekex..stop here lerx bahx... ...
hahax..juz came back not long ago nia..went to ade's church to see they musical play called the mask aka mian ju(in chinese)..wahahax..musical..so gt church the ppl singing..sum very horrible..lols..but of course cant complain lahx..very scary sia..1 part they sing the time sent shivers dwn my spine..lols..but there was 1 guy who sang quite well de..so full of er..emotion..lols..but quite boring sia..thn celest(cousin) sit nxt to me eat so much sweet!lols..the church ppl there tot we bth friends..and same age..hahax..(i look so old meh?)they wanted me to join but of course they didnt force lahx..neither did they say have to join lahx..but they say only if i want to which of course i dont..lols..quite ok bahx the play..i saw my last yr sec 2 the chinese teacher there!!!unbelievable but of course she doesnt seem to recognise me cos ade say i put on a lot of weight..lols..thn i think i oso saw my sis de friend..nickname ashpixie or sum thing..hahax..dun think she recognise me either..hmmx..every1 look familiar lehx!lols..anyway..after the play ate sum supper thn went home and reached home at 11:15 like tat..this afternoon went to buy my new yr clothes..hahax..bought skirt and 3 tops and 1 shorts..hahax..kekex..stop here lerx...
yikes..gotta hurry..lols..later going shopping wif my parents..yea i noe..but bo bian since i am the only 1 left..my bro went for wrk and sis wif her bf..soo..me left to go wif them to buy my er..new year clothes..ya right..haix..wahseh..today woke at 8am in the morning..was a little pissed off because i had tution in the early morning..hahax..no mood to have tution..anyway i still went oso lahx..hahax..and after tution went for my breakfast with my parents thn later come home lorx..hahax..kekex..i'd better get going bahx... ...
haix..i may hate the vb coach but i may not hate vb..haix..wad is the principle thinking of?!muz they all achieve sum thing so that the cca can go on?!is so unfair lorx..is he in his right mind?!such stupid high standard he set on them..sigh..i do miss those trainings though..grr..haix..feeling guilty and pained..9 days left for them to prepare for the tournament..sigh..i dun think i am able to help am i?haix..juz hoping they would be able to achieve and win something and dun lose to stupid principle... ...
hehe..sry for nt posting more often lerx..nowadays cannot liaox..sch reopen so seldom use comp anymore..haix..so sianx..sch sch sch..i wish no more sch lahx..with the lkk aka black bird with us for 1 year..lols..haix..hard to understand ppl's mind..dun noe wad they want frm me..wad they really think inside..nv judge a bk by its cover..i tot it was different..thn they told me and i saw for myself wad with my own eyes..but not like i did tell so they dunno a thing yet..and i am not planning to tell either..never..or else they will have a guilty conscience..i dun wanna get any closer..i dun wanna be sad anymore..i dun wanna go thru a dark period of time again..dun wanna be depressed anymore... ...
*wondering*wahh..juz nw i was looking at kaela's artwrk in Deviant art..OMG..those ppl there all so bian tai de!!lols..they draw until so nice..esp kae's..hahax..my goodness..i can never never never ever draw so nice..and so real..wahh..shocking to see those drawings..lols..hahax..i wish last time back in aust can ask kae to draw more for me..lols..thn can keep..thn show off to my grandchildren or children..lols..so nice..these are ppl who can grow up to be famous artists..muahaha..but tats if they want to lahx..wahseh..really really unbelievably nice..O.O

← Newer PostOlder Post →